*^&%^$$@!!! Emo mode...

Nothing much, nothing interesting happened for the last few days. Im lost lately. Have u ever feel like u are so sad and moody and when people asked you whats wrong, u dont know what to tell them cause u dont even know the main reason why u're so sad. Thats what happening to me lately. Sometimes im ok, and sometimes im seriously not in a mood. I just dont know whats wrong with me and why im so sad. Im mad at the same time.

This semester is my final semester insyallah and i dont want anything more but i just want this sem to be fun and cool. But its not! The subjects are boring, the lecturers bla bla bla, and my group mates sux and my classmates are boring. I dont want to be too negative. Ive tried to tell myself that i should enjoy it to the max no matter what but i failed. Every morning, its so damn hard for me to wake up. As if like i have no good reason to wake up. The moment when i lay on my bed and about to sleep at night, im so happy cause i can relax my mind. I dont know why but lately i slept a lot. Ive gained 3 kg in 2 months! Grrrr. Ive tried to be the girl who is never obsessed about her weight but i cant. My current weight now is 48. So much for my new year resolution to get 43 kg by the end of this year. But its okey, Ramadhan is coming and usually my weight will drop 3 kg after the Ramadhan. Of course i have to skip the sahur. Hehehe.

So many things going on in my mind right now. Sometimes the only way for me to still be alive is that i laugh at the silliest thing. When i feel like im about to break down, i will try to recall back anything that will make me laugh and i end up laughing alone. Hey, at least it can cure me for few hours, or minutes. Maybe the reason that i cant enjoy my final semester is that i have to face the fact that by the end of this year, my life will change. I dont even know whether to continue my study or work. And even if i want to continue my master, where will it be? Do i have the guts to study in oversea for a year? Should i continue my study in uia since ive known all the lecturer or should i work cause i have no experience at all. Damn, how i wish somebody or something will enlighten me so that at least i know what to do or which path to choose. I cant believe its my final semester now. Im gonna miss uia. Okey, one more reason to be emotional! Damn.

P/s : I gotta find a great quote to cheer me up. A.S.A.P!!!

Brooklyn bridge.

Before i turn 30, i wanna drive a convertible car all through Brooklyn bridge in New York City at night while listening to 'Dancing in the dark' by Bruce Springsteen. That will be my dream. Something that i really wanted to do before i reach my 30's. But i know that it wont be easy. I need like lots and lots of cash before it actually happen. The bridge is so beautiful especially at night. Juz look at the picture. How can u not like it?

Agak poyo la kan smpi kereta yang aku nak drive pun yang convertible. Haha. Of course la. Gila style bawak kereta mcm ni at night with all the city lights and stuff. If i made it to New York, i'll try me very best to find this kind of car and sewa just for few hours or maybe one whole day just to make it happen. Gila style kan. Kalau J.lo dalam video clip 'Love dont cost a thing' rambut dia terbang2 drive kereta ni, kalau aku yang drive, tudung aku la yang terbang2. Gile cool. Rasenye i'll be the first woman yang pakai tudung naik convertible car kat Brooklyn bridge! Hooo yeah!

Maybe some people mostly dont know who is Bruce Springsteen but he's one of the pop singer back during the 80's. I have no idea why i just love this song. Check it out!

I love it ever since the first time i heard it. Such a fun song and the beats totally resemblance and will remind you of the 80's. The sound of it is soooo 80's pop music which i love it. Everytime when i drive my car alone at night, i always listen to it and i still remember how happy i am when i listened to it at night. Sometimes, there are things that u juz cant explain. Especially when it comes about feeling. But thats exactly how i felt. Owh, and the girl dancing on the stage before the song end is Courteney Cox. Isn't she cute? She's so young here and the way she danced with Bruce, oh my god! They look so damn happy. As if like there's no problem at all and all they do is singing and dancing all through the night without worrying about anything. Hehe, what do i know? hahaha...

I know that it wont be easy to achieve it. It takes time, money and courage to make it happen. Even if it happen when im 35, im still happy. But im not saying that i wont be happy if my dreams wont come true. At least i know that i have dreams and i've work my ass off trying to achieve it. Kalau ada rezeki, insyallah sampai jugak aku kat sana with my convertible car, and Bruce Springsteen song. :)

p/s : Is it to early to think what to wear on that day and what color of my tudung that i will choose? hehehe :)

German gempaq dowh!

Yeah, as stated up there, German mmg giler gempak la this time punya world cup. Mmg unexpected! Agak bengang la cuz diorg kalahkan England 4-1. Unbelievable! Aku tgk match yang England lawan German tu mase kat rumah. Actually tgk yg delay punya. So i forced myself not to look at my handphone cuz i might know the result before the match. Giler spoil la kan kalau dah tau sape menang awal2.

Mase dah masuk gol ke-2 from German, mmg aku dah x de mood nak tgk dah. Then my brother in law ckp, ala relax la, banyak masa lagi. Then bila England buat gol jgk, ok, baru semangat balik! haha. But too bad, x sempat nak kasi seri, German buat lagi 2 gol! Giler tension! Arrgghhh.Mmg rase nak mengamuk k. Serious! X pe, England tetap di hati! hahahah :)

After the game, aku dah agak dah sure like banyak giler sms in my hp nak ngutuk england and im damn right! Sakit hati bace ok. Then i forced myself to sleep tapi terlalu bengang smpi x bole tido. So i woke up and watch movie 'Shes out of my league'. Hmm, not bad. End up, i slept around 4 am. I swear to god, mmg confirm dalam facebook sure byk giler notifications mengejek aku. damn! x sanggup nak buka.

The next morning, bgn je tido terus buka facebook. Wut to do, dah jadi rutin pagi2. haha. Omg! smua org la nak serang facebook aku. Sakit hati weyh baca smua org ckp england dah kalah. Panas je. Smpi Sir Johanni pun boooooo kat Rooney! Damn. Hate to admit but German mmg bagus la. Smpi Argentina pun bole kalah! They are good at passing the ball. At first aku nak support German, then bila baca Lahm ckp England x hormat German terus aku panas. Since when England kluar statement mcm tu. Terus la aku support Argentina. Ahahaha

Too bad, kalah lagi! This time 4-0. Lagi teruk dari England. But at least people wont talk shit bout England lg after this. Yeay! Hehe. That 20 year old Mueller mmg bagus la! Mase lawan England pun dia yang gol kan. Too bad, kena yellow card plak so he wont play against Spain for the Semi final. Heh, ade chance Spain nak menang beb! Great! Villa do your thang! Omg, Fabregas is super cute ok when he hugged Villa. Hmmm, im smiling right now. Cant wait for the semi final.

Hopefuly Spain will win.