Mr.Boyfie

Happy 89 months anniversary. He's part of my life since i was in high school and i always thought high school lover is cute!

How can i not fall for his eyes? How can i not fall for him every time when he cracked me up with his jokes? How can i not fall for him when all he talks about is his future with me.

Yeah, he made a mistakes before. I made a mistakes before. We both got hurts. But no one is perfect. Even after so long of being together, i still feel super excited when i wanna go out with him. He has taught me so much and maybe in a hard way but lesson learned and i love him even more.

I juz love having a long conversation with him. There are time when i feel like what was i thinking to be in this long relationship? And he knows how to remind me back. Looking forward to more anniversary with you and enjoying the ride.

I LOVE YOU MR.BOYFIE!

P/s: I swear im smiling alone right now in my bed room with my pajamas still on. Gonna hit the shower in a few minutes. Happy Sunday :)

Thank you bitches!

Hey ya peeps! Finally have the chance to blog since im still not sleepy yet although its pretty late now. What the heck, it's public holiday tomorrow! I dont know why but i kept thinking about high school a lot lately. Well, they said that there must be some memories there that makes me cant stop thinking about it. Its either good or bad memories. To me, its a blend of both. But i think i have more bad memories there since girls school is synonym with bitches. Even until now. Yeah here's a thing that i wanna blog about.

Those bitches who made my tears flow like a river back then, i already forgive you but i will never forget what you did.

Thank you for laughing at me. Yea i know i was a nerd but that doesn't mean you can go around and laugh about it as if you are cool enough. I bet you too feel insecure and by making fun of me will make you feel better.

Thank you for making fun of my frizzy curly hair. There are times when i cant even look at myself in the mirror. You can ask a friend of mine, Aizat Khairudin how much i cry my eyes out and i called him in the middle of the night complaining about my hair although i know nothing much he can do about it.

Thank you for saying that i need to grow up just because my pencil case is like a 10 year old girl. Do you expect everyone to be like you? Dont u ever heard of individuality and diversity bitch?

Thank you for giving that kind of face as if im not belong in your so-called group and thank you for saying that i need a huge make over to make guys fall for me. Guess what babe, i think when i had my first boyfriend when i was 15, you are still boyfriend-less!

Thank you for making fun of my taste in music. Well, do you think you're cool enough juz because you're not into the mainstream music? Sometimes the one who tried so hard to be individual is the one that people call pathetic. Whats wrong of enjoying the bubblegum pop music and boy bands?

Thank you for making fun of my indian blood but at least i dont look like a typical malay like you bitches! Im so proud of this blood and there's nothing to be ashamed of!

Thank you for bullying me and destroying all my stuff when im in class. You have no idea how much i cried every time when i got back from school.

Thank you for spreading false rumor about me but at least somebody told me about your true colors and opened up my eyes that i can never trust you again!

Thank you for rejecting me from the cheerleading tryout just because you want some German transfered student to be in your team although she is 10 times fatter than me and how the hell she wanna jump and move her ass like a cheerleader but im sooo fucking happy when your team lose! If you think by having some transfered student in your team could make you win, well the judges are not stupid like you!

Thank you for calling me shorty for years! So what? You're making fun of god's creation is it? Suit yourself! Well, because of my 154 cm height, people kept thinking that im still 18 now and too bad you look like a mother now! Karma's a bitch huh? Told ya!

Thank you for making fun of my Simpson's birthday cake when i was 15. That is super rude since i invited you to my so-called party and is that how you talk to me who invited you to my house? I guess, your mama didn't teach you enough about how to behave.

Thank you for making fun of my thick eyebrow. Hey, who said that every girls have to pluck their eyebrow? Who made that stupid rules?? Tell me!

Thank you for making me cry myself to sleep for 5 years in high school.

Fucking thank you bitches! I forgive you but i remember you! Right now as im almost 24, i never give a shit about what haters gonna say! Im comfortable in my skin and if you still think of me as the nerd from high school, well up to you. Anything to make you happy. If you're laughing at me before and still laughing now, trust me that im laughing way louder than you!

I dont need to mention the names of all this bitches as some of them are still my friends until now. But trust me, i remember everything!

Yes, its been ages since high school, but try to walk in my shoes, then you will know.

P/s : Yes, i forgive you even when you never ever say sorry to me... (owh, it feels so relieved to let it all out here. Now i can look forward!)

Sorority life. Well.... used to.

Peeps peeps! Hey, i was so caught up with my work since Monday that i got no time to blog but its funny how i still have time to Tumblr. Well, nice pictures sometimes can soothed me from all the mess. I was juz looking through some of my old photos and this picture got my attention.

Being 19 at this time is so much fun. Just imagine that im so enjoying myself that i never study at all. My academic is the last thing on my mind during that time. This is the time that i got my freedom that i've been waiting for years since high school. Not totally freedom but at least more space to do what i want. But sometimes, when i think about it again, freedom can damage ourselves when we dont know how to control it.

I met lots of great people this time and here are some of them. Its hard to stay in touch with them once when we moved to main campus in Gombak a year later. Whats left is just a memories. I still remember that i love spending time with them every night. We had the best time ever just by hanging out together.

At this time, Aza and Emy is my roommate. We stayed in level 3 and our friends room is exactly above our room which is in level 4 so sometimes we just communicate from the window by just screaming out loud. So its either we go to their room or they came to our room to watch dvd, gossiping and just chit chatting. Gosh, i really miss it so much.

The room is so small so whenever we watched dvd, we have to squeezed in a bit cuz there's 10 girls in one room including Aisya and Yana who came all the way from other block just to hang out with us. We will switch off the light, get cozy with the blanket and watch the movie. I love watching Thriller with them! :)

They also love to borrow my magazines and i dont mind. We had the best time ever. Maybe its sort of like a sorority club but not the official one. We always there for each other and we always know how to cheer up each other but of course we do have some issues. But at the end of the day, when everyone are there, its hard to remain mad with them.

We also love to dance together in the room especially dancing to some hindi songs! Basically, all i can say is that, we really had fun together. We even sneaked out just to go to the mall. There's one time, Me and Aza have to stay inside Aisya's car boot so that the guard wont see us. Its so damn funny to think about it again man! There are some sweet and bitter memories there.

Dont let some stupid silly argument ruin the friendship. You will regret it for the rest of your life. Thats why its hard for me to stay mad at someone for so long. Because i know that i will miss each and one of them so much.

P/s : God bless them. Love!

Label much?

I pity those people who judged others a lot when the truth is they actually dont know a thing about being in other peoples shoes. How can they be so sure and confident in labeling people as if they know the entire story of other peoples life?

For years, i got labels all the time. Its like written all over my face ever since in high school but i choose to ignore it even sumtimes its hard. Well, for the past few weeks, i was thinking, Fuck screw them. Im done pleasing people and trying to be someone else so that people wont label me but i guess i cant please everyone but myself. So if people call me childish, or retard or geek or drama queen, i dont give a damn anymore. I dont wanna live in other people's prison. Im gonna do it my way. Right now, what im looking for is anything that can make me happy. Anything.

P/s: Living in your own world is better rather than trying to bring people down by making fun of them. Peace out!

The Small Things

People tend to focus on getting rich and filthy filthy rich. They measure someone's happiness from the amount of cash in their bank. But its not a surprise that those who have a zillion of money sometimes feel empty, alone and...dead.

We need to be thankful on what we have got so far. Sometimes, even the smallest things can make us happy or at least put a smile to our face. For me, if i have a rough day, that vanilla ice cream from McDonald that only cost RM1 can brought smile to my face again. Yeah, i got pissed really fast and the next thing i know, im smiling again. Hormone problem i guess.

For now, i just wanna lie down in the garden and have a picnic with my best friends and just gossiping non stop. And also enjoying cheese cake together. Simple right?

I wanna do the things i like. I wanna make myself happy because all this while i have been so caught up with pleasing people to the extend that i dont even know what i want for myself. So my life right now is go to work in the morning and go back home at night. When i reached home, i feel so relax when im in front of my computer and got nothing to stress about. Just chat with some old friends, try to stay in touch with everyone and for now, im blogging although my eyes is kinda sleepy. Well, to me the night is still young.

Right now, im in a state where im hooked in reading novels. My mind can go pretty wild when i imagine everything that i read. The feeling is just awesome. Dont be surprise if you see me smiling to myself while reading my novel in the lrt. Thats because i got the goosebumps when i imagined the character comes to reality. Haha.

P/s : So am i a fantasy girl that Caprice is looking for? I doubt that! hahaha :)

Lunch Delivery.

Hey ya bloggers, or readers? Haha. Its been ages since the last time i updated my blog. Well, lots of things happened lately and i dont know where to start to tell you guys. Its just that i have been so caught up with my work and stuff. Gosh, i dont even have time for myself. I promised to myself that i dont wanna be a workaholic and a slave to my job. That will never happen. I dont want to wake up in the morning and go to work, head back home at night and go straight to bed. The same routine again and again. Where's the life man??! Haha...

So no matter how busy i am, i tried to do something for me, and not for my job. Like.... hmmm i read my novel on my way to work and in the lrt. I tried to chat with my friends while im busy in the office, tried so hard to go back home early so i can have a proper dinner with my family and watch tv, twittering, tumblring, facebooking, and blogging. I called it my escapism baby!! But trust me, its hard to squeeze in the time!

Yea so thats what they call it, the things that you do for money aite... I love my job. Way better than my other job before. But there's too much work! I dont wanna complain but i hate the fact that i have to go back home at night and sometimes i have to continue my work at home.. At this time, i am suppose to do my work which the dateline is tomorrow noon but instead, here i am blogging about it. Yeah thats pretty much.

So here i am, on Saturday, working my ass off but still have time to have a break and camwhoring when there's no one in the office. Haha. Well, to cheer me up that day, i treated myself with McDonald for lunch and of course its delivery straight to my table. And thats why they called it fast food rite...

Im a happy kid when i got my double cheese burger. Yummylicious lah! :)

P/s : Sunday almost come to end. Monday is creeping me out. Hopefully it will b a good week. If its not, i will try my best to make it awesome! Muaxxx :)

Pretty little liars

Hey peeps! Its Sunday. Love Sunday! Okay, so last Thursday, i went back to my hometown since its a long break and my mom forced me. Of course i dont wanna go back since it is so boring there. So to avoid boredom, i brought a novel with me as a distraction. This is the book.

I bought this novel at Kinokuniya KLCC months ago. I've heard about it before and when i saw it there at the book shelves, of course i have to take it despite the price. Even the book cover is scandalous enough. I just love to read girlish novel especially when it involves secrets, scandal or even death! That is just great. When i read the synopsis of the book, i know that this is the book im looking for. So let's see if Sara Shepard can be as good as Kate Brian. Or maybe better?

Well for now, its still early to tell since i haven't read the rest of the novel series yet. But while i was there at my hometown, i got hooked with this novel and i cant stop reading it and i managed to finish reading this only for 2 days and i feel like im craving for more.... Hopefully the 2nd book, Flawless is in store already and hopefully it will be better!

When i read a novel, i always try to relate myself with the main character of the story. You know, just for fun and see if it can really connect. Well, in this novel, there are 4 characters and i try to relate with at least one of the character. Before i explain that, let me introduce these hot girls okay....


This is Hanna. She's a Paris Hilton look alike. I mean not the face but more of the attitude. She used to be a dorky girl 3 years back and now she is 16 and she's the it-girl in school. Super thin and of course with that body figure, she suffer an eating disorder. Bulimia. She has a very low self esteem when she's alone but no one knows about that but herself. She's dating the hottest guy in school who pledge to stay virgin until marriage and that drive her insane!


This is Spencer. The miss know-it-all in her high school. She's one of the best student and not only in academic but also in other activity. She always envy her older sister who is also one of the best student in the school before and that is what motivates her to do more. She's totally in love with her sister's boyfriend and that makes her relationship with her sister become worse. Even when she's the perfect daughter for getting a good grades and obviously will nail it in University later, of course she has some weakness and that will be, flirting with her own sister's boyfriend. Totally wrong!

This is Emily. A very obedient daughter to her parents. But lately she realize that she's not normal. Ever since she got a new neighbor living next door name Maya she has no feeling sanymore to her boyfriend. All she could think about is the smell's of Maya's hair, her sexiness and she enjoyed hanging around with her. Everything changed when her boyfriend saw her kissing Maya and she know that she's not into boys anymore and that freaks her out. But she feels so good to have a best friend like Maya who she can totally share anything with. Even her tongue. Euw enough.


And the last girl is Aria. She has some issue with her own personality. For years she tried to be anything. Artsy Aria, Punk Aria and so many different character. Her darkest secret is she's having a scandalicious relationship with her own teacher Ezra. Well, they actually met at a bar before the school starts and they had no idea at all that they will b in a student-teacher relationship after that. But, when they found out, it didnt stop their romance. They got closer and Aria feel special and she didnt care about boys her age anymore. Its all about Ezra now. When she has tried so many different character, of course she's good at covering the secret.

From all the girls story, Hanna's story is the least that i like. I feel like there's no secret and drama in her character. I mean, its not enough drama. But the character that i feel related to the most is Aria. I dont know why but i love her story. Maybe i know and i understand what it feels like to have a personality problem. At one time, u wanna be girlish and at one time u juz wanna explode and emo for no reason. I used to be that or am i still like that? Hahahaha i have no idea. And Aria is the shortest and have the thickest eyebrow. That is sooooo ME.

This is the new novel series that i will start to follow. How can i ignore this type of novel. Totally my favorite!

p/s : Kate Brian, u definitely have a competitor now!

Why so serious?

Hey peeps. Its been awhile, i know. I've been busy lately and i dont really like to blog when im not in the mood so that explains. So what i wanna blog about? Hmm, lately, i feel like im taking this life way too serious? To the point when i feel like its wrong to even laugh and smile! Aiyoooo thats dangerous la. I might get a depression if i continue like this. Or am i already depressed? Well, that is subjective so its hard for me to say. But what i know is that, im so serious lately. Yes, i have some happy time when i go crazee and all but i know myself better and i know that the beginning of this year is not that good. I repeat, not good!

But its beyond my control and what's done is done. No point if i wanna continue to be sad about it. Im trying my very best to look forward but all i could think about is my past. Why is it so hard for me to let go the past? Somebody said that i am selfish cuz i dont want the time to go. Well, its true..

I admit that the future makes me scared. But stuck in the past also is scary. Part of me still back during the days. Every time when i hang out with my school friends, i always talked about our school time together especially all the stupid jokes that we used to laugh before. And they said that, i always talked about it every time we met. So, is that bad? :(

And now, since im no longer UIA student, i miss that life so much that it brought tears to my eyes when i think about the fact that it wont be the same again. That time has gone. All just a memories now.

P/s : I guess i really miss the old times

Money cant buy happiness. U think?

Hey peeps! how u're doin? Guess what? I have a doubts now! This is not good. I hate this feeling. The feeling of not sure what do you want and u cant choose because you're confuse. Get it? Yeah, it sounds weird but.... hmmmm how can i put it in words? Have u ever wonder why some homeless people still able to smile and juz live the day? Have you ever wonder why the rich people sometimes have no time at all to chill and have fun? Have you ever wonder why people said that money cant buy happiness?

But in Gossip Girl, Blair Waldorf used to said that those who believed in that quote actually dont know where to shop! What a materialistic! Then again, everyone wants to have lots of money and we tend to assumed that when we have money, there will be no problem. Anything that you wanna get, anything that you wanna do, you can get it all done. Just like that!

But have you ever wonder that sometimes, to be happy doesn't mean that we have to spend the money. What i mean is, its who u're with and how much you treasure the moments can still make you happy right? For some kids, they dont need to go to Disneyland to have the fun. They dont have to get the latest Playstation to have the fun. Whenever they're with their friends and just play some silly, stupid games, did you see how happy they were? Isn't that simple?



Whats your definition of happy? For me, im not sure because back then im really sure what i want. All i want is to have a really good job and have a good money so i can do whatever i like anytime i want. But i realize that its a long way. You're gonna face lots of pressure, tension and struggle to get there. And that is if you're lucky. Sometimes, people work really hard but they still didn't get there. Don't you think its exhausting that you have been studying for years and you have prepared yourself for future since you were a kid! That's pretty exhausting right? Your parents depends on you to get a good result so that they can impressed other people with our achievement. Its a burden that we have to carry with us for years! You have to get a good result to get into University, then its another struggle cause u must get a really good cgpa to get a good job. And when you got a job, u have to work hard to get a better position and better income.


So when is the time that you can actually lay back and dont have to think about it? By the time, you already got a good income, you will realize that you're 40! And you know that time really flies that you didn't get a chance at all to have fun when you're young. What a waste!!


For me, i have lots of needs. I love to go shopping and i wanna travel all around the world. But i need lots of money to fulfill all that dreams. In order to get that, i have to work my ass off. Have to sacrifice a lot of things. But by that time, im already old! Sometimes i kept asking myself, why im struggling so hard to impress those people i dont even like! Such a waste of time dont you think? Sometimes i think that if im a simple girl, who doesn't need 30 handbags and 10 jeans in the closet, my life will be better and no pressure. I dont demand too much when it comes to salary. I juz work, and get the money with no pressure.

Maybe just work at restaurant as waitress or something. When i get the money, i spend it wisely and still know how to have fun. Maybe juz chilling with family and friends for a picnic or just watch movie and play bowling. That wasn't bad right? But then again, im not that girl. That kind of a girl will keep doing the same thing again and again and just for the sake of money to continue living. But for me, i wanna do lots of different things. I wanna travel and see other culture. I wanna go shopping anytime that i like. But part of me wish that im just a simple girl who doesn't give a shit at all about that things. My life will be simpler and more fun!



I really wish that i can go travel and have a better future. But at the same time, i don't want to be that kind of a girl who are so obsess with her job and have no time at all to relax and enjoy. I wanna be fun all the way even when i know that there will be lots of thunderstorm along the way. Am i ready for that? Hopefully.

P/s : Brooklyn bridge, stay there! I will come someday!

2011 & New job

Hey peeps! Guess what? its 2011 already. Duh, like u dont know. Well, hows your celebration? Mine was quiet and boring but at least i got to spend some quality time with my family and cousins. Around 11 pm last night i was thinking about what will be my resolution. I was flipping through my diary and tapping the pen but still i have no idea what to write in it. Sometimes the things that u didnt plan can turn out to be the best thing that ever happen to you for that year. So basically, what i wrote is that, i juz wanna be a better person. Hmmm, if u ask anyone, that will also be their resolution right? Hahaha. me too.

I cant believe i will turn 24 this year. Time really flies. Its scary sometimes to think about what will happen next and when i think about it again, there are something that i can control and some are destiny and faith that will bring me to the future. So, its not like i leave everything to god. I do have my own plans but i already learned my lesson. I dont wanna plan too much cause things might not happen the way i want it to be so i will just go with the flow.

For now, i have a job and i love it. Okay, maybe i juz like it. But at least i got a job. Ok, here's the reason why i like my job:

1) I love news editing

2) My boss is super nice and he's a malay

3) My office in near to KLCC so i have no problem about transportation

4) I really enjoyed the fact that my office is so close to KLCC n i feel very sophisticated when i walked there to my office. Hehehe

5) The toilet is clean!!!!

6) My office mate are cool

7) They have the best Karipap sardin!

But too bad, there are few things that i dont really like about my job

1) Starts at 10 until 6. On Friday, maybe 8 pm! Thank god Saturday and Sunday is holiday

2) It is super cold there! Maybe i should have a pashmina or something

3) The news that i suppose to edit is islamic finance news. Hello? Im so bimbo about that la!

4) I have to bring my own laptop everyday.... maybe for the time being

5) The food is super expensive

I guess thats it. We will see how it goes. Well, of course im excited about it. Super excited. But to be honest i dont like to work following working hours. I prefer to do anything that i like as a freelance job. That way, i can work whenever i like and i can enjoy anytime that i want. So if i work from monday to friday almost until night, that means now i have to divide my time for my family, my boyfriend, and my friends. It wont be easy. Im gonna miss them. But i will try my best to spend my time with them. After all, they are my source of strength, and happiness. What would i do without them.

This is the start for me to save up all the money to make my dreams come true. Los Angeles, New York, Paris, i will see you soon!

Los Angeles

New York, (Brooklyn)

Paris

Wrapping up 2010

Its almost the end of 2010. 2 days left and say hello to a new year where everything is possible. Well, what can i say about 2010? I still remember my resolution for 2010 is to make this year interesting. Guess what? It is interesting! Lots of things expected and unexpected happened and i learned so much from it. It is a year that i will never ever forget. And when i think about it again, i cant believe that i survived! I guess im getting stronger as i get older.

2011 is the year that i will be working for money and we will see how it goes. Maybe its faith that brought me there and i thank god for it. Well actually, im kindda afraid to make lots of list about resolutions. Maybe i will juz keep it to myself :) This is the year that i got more friends and i love every second that i had with them. All the gossiping, karaoke session was amazing. This is also my final year as a degree student and of course there's so many things happened. I did remember how i cry my eyes out during my last day before the final exam. I guess that is how life goes. Nothing belong to us. Even the time. Its time for me to get out and see the world.

Im happy actually that my dad finally agreed to go on a family vacation and we went to Singapore. I had the best time and it makes me feel like i cant wait any longer to fly and see the world. Insyallah if god's will, i can go to all the beautiful places that i wanted to go so bad :)

Happy new year everyone. Finger cross and make a wish!

P/s: Those who wish to watch me fall, thank u. You have no idea how u have helped me to be stronger. I love you haters! :)

100 questions to kill the time :)

1. Are you an innie or an outie? Depends on my mood but mostly outie
   

2. Have you ever written a song? Yeah but juz a words and thoughts and there's no melody
   

3. Can you make change for a dollar right now? Yeah
   

4. Have you ever been in the opposite sex's public toilet? Yep, i think once. I really need to pee and i cant find female toilet so i simply entered male toilet. Luckily, there's no one!
   

5. Have you ever written a poem? Yes, since i was 15 :)
   

6. Do you like ketchup on or beside your fries? Beside of course
   

7. Have you ever been a boy/girl scout? Never

8. Have you ever written a book? Nope. Maybe someday. A book about me maybe? :P
   

9. Have you ever broken a mirror? Cant remember
   

10. Are you superstitious? Sometimes, but not that hard core like some people. But i do believe in the unseen things
    

11. What is your biggest pet peeve? Cats! They are needy and not cute. I used to have one and after he died, no one can replace him :(
    

12. Do you slurp your drink after it's gone? Yeah. Hehehe...
    

13. Have you ever blown bubbles in your milk? Ummmm... what for?
    

14. Would you rather eat a Big Mac or a Whopper? Double Cheese Burger lah!!
    

15. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? No

16. Would you ever parachute out of a plane? Hell no! Too scared to do that!
    

17. What's the most daring thing you've done? Owh, i dont need to mention it here okay.
    

18. When you are at the grocery store, do you ask for paper or plastic? hmmm, plastic. Its a habit
    

19. True or False: You would rather eat steak than pizza. - Nah, i dont usually eat steak. Gimme Pizza plz!!
    

20. Did you have a baby blanket? Used to. Not anymore. But im not sure if my mom still keep it.
    

21. Have you ever tried to cut your own hair? Yeah. I did that when i was 18 whenever im feeling depressed. Its how i deal with it. Weird huh? But ever since that, i cant remember when was the last time i get a hair cut at a salon cuz i cut it myself. My hair is curly so its easy!
    

22. How did that turn out? Juz nice and saving!
    

23. Have you ever sleepwalked? Nope, i dont think so
    

24. Have you ever had a birthday party at McDonalds? No, but i think that sounds fun! Hehehe
    

25. Can you flip your eye-lids up? Yeah when i was a kid. Im not sure if i can do that now. Maybe i watched too much of horror movie and im scared to do that!!
    

26. Are you double jointed? What???

27. If you could be any age, what age would you be? 15 :)
    

28. Have you ever gotten gum stuck in your hair? No. Thank you
    

29. Do you ride roller coasters? Love it! Hahahaha :)
    

30. What's your favorite carnival ride? Roller coaster of course!
    

31. What is your dream car? None. I know nothing about car!
    

32. What is your favorite cartoon of all time? Lots. But if i really have to pick, it will b Tom n Jerry. and also Donald Duck. I really love it when Donald's get mad!! Hahahaha...
    

33. Have you ever eaten a dog biscuit? Ewwwww, no la!!
    

34. If so, would you eat another one? No thanx
    

35. If you were in a car sinking in a lake, what would you do first? Try to unbuckle the seat belt and open the damn door and swim to the surface. Oh god, plz dont let it happen to me!!
    

36. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? Never

37. Can you pick something up with your toes? Yeah... pen?
    

38. How many remote controls do you have in your house? Omg, what kind of question is this> Of course i dont know.
    

39. Have you ever fallen asleep in school? Its like my part time job la.... hehehe
    

40. How many times have you flown in an airplane in the last year? last year? Mayb once
    

41. How many foreign countries have you visited? Mekah, Madinah, Turkey, Phuket, Indonesia. I think thats all.
    

42. If you were out of shape, would you compete in a triathlon if you were somehow guaranteed to win a big, gaudy medal? I dont think soooooo
    

43. Would you rather be rich and unhappy, or poor and happy? Poor and happy. But not that poor lah. hehe
    

44. If you fell into quicksand, would you try to swim or try to float? Float?

45. Do you ask for directions when you are lost? If i have to...
    

46. Have you ever held a Mexican jumping bean? Whats that???
    

47. Are you more like Cinderella or Alice in Wonderland? Im more like.....me? hehehe
    

48. Would you rather have an ant farm with no ants or a box of crayons with broken points? Wtf? I'd rather have none! hahaha
    

49. Do you prefer light or dark bread? anything goes...
    

50. Do you prefer scrambled or fried eggs? both!! yummeh!
    

51. Have you ever been in a car that ran out of gas? Cant recall, but i think no
    

52. Do you talk in your sleep? Maybe. No idea lah
    

53. Would you rather shovel snow or mow the lawn? Mow the lawn :)
    

54. Have you ever played in the rain? Of course!!! years ago :)
    

55. Did you make mud pies? nah.....

56. Have you ever broken a bone? weyyyyy! Nope. and hopefully never..
    

57. Would you climb a very high tree to save a kitten? kitten? nah.... hehehe
    

58. Can you tell the difference between a crocodile and an alligator? not really... alligator might b small? is it?
    

59. Do you drink pepsi or coke? I dont drink both!
    

60. What's your favorite number? 23 :)
    

61. If you were a car, would you be an SUV or a sports car? sports car?
    

62. Have you ever accidentally taken something from a hotel? yeah... the card :)
    

63. Have you ever slipped in the bathtub? yeah.. hehehe
    

64. Do you use regular or deodorant soap? regular soap
    

65. Have you ever locked yourself out of the house? yeah.. its sooo funny!
    

66. Would you rather make your living as a singing cowboy or as one of the Simpsons voices? Simpsons voice! Cowboy voice can b annoying sumtimes...
    

67. If you could invite any movie star to your home for dinner, who would it be? The Olsen!!!
    

68. Do you need corrective lenses? Think so, but im fine...
    

69. Would you hang out with / date someone your best friend didn't like? Yeah, its my choice.
    

70. Would you hang out with someone your best friend liked, but you didn't like? Maybe..

71. Have you ever returned a gift? No. no reason to do that.
    

72. Would you give someone else a gift that had been given to you? No, that will b kindda rude.
    

73. If you could attend an Olympic Event, what would it be? Gymnastic :)
    

74. If you could participate in an Olympic Event, what would it be? Swimming? Hehehehe
    

75. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Now? about 10..
    

76. If your grandmother gave you a gift that you already have, would you tell her? Yeah
    

77. Do you sing in the car? Hell yeah. Thats what i do most of the time. I'll b sooo sleepy if theres no music while im driving!
    

78. What is your favorite breed of dog? Dunno

79. Would you donate money to feed starving animals in the winter? Yeah why not..
    

80. What is your favorite fruit? Grapes, Strawberry
    

81. What is your least favorite fruit? Cant recall
    

82. What kind of fruit have you never had? Cant recall
    

83. If you won a $5,000 shopping spree to any store, which store would you pick? ZARA!!!

84. What brand sports apparel do you wear the most? Im not into sports lahhhhh
    

85. Are/were you a good student? Were... maybe..
    

86. Among your friends, who could you arm wrestle and beat? None, cuz im super weak! hehe
    

87. If you had to choose, what branch of the military would you be in? no thanx!
    

88. What do you think is your best feature? My eyes :) My smile :)
    

89. If you were to win a Grammy, what kind of music would it be for? POP :)
    

90. If you were to win an Oscar, what kind of movie would it be for? Romantic comedy. hehehe
    

91. What is your favorite season? Malaysia got no season so i like September cuz its my birthday!! :)
    

92. How many members do you have in your immediate family? immediate family? family is it? errrr.... 5
    

93. Which of the five senses is most important to you? All are important :)
    

94. Would you be a more successful painter or singer? Maybe singer.
    

95. How many years will/did you end up going to college? 5 years maybe
    

96. Have you ever had surgery? Nope

97. Would you rather be a professional figure skater or professional football player? Football player!!!
    

98. What do you like to collect? Songs, dvd's, handbags, accessories :)
    

99. How many collectibles do you have? Cant remember
    

100. What one question would you add to this survey? Who are you? I am ME :)
     

Random Question

Do u still remember the time when Friendster is sooo famous and everyone kept posting about random question and asnwer on their home page? Well, its been ages since the last time i did that. I was looking at someone's blog and i saw there's a lot of random questions so i juz wanna fill the time. Here it goes :

Give me the names of 3 objects or things you love most and why?
My Serena(laptop), My Rebecka (car), My Regina(Handphone)... Cant live without it. And of course my jeans, clothes, shoes and handbags.... So many things that i love in my room lah...

Do you dream?
Yeah, its beyond my control. Sometimes i enjoyed it, sometimes i dont cuz it can be super scary!

Can you remember your last dream?
Ummm... yeah. It is scary. And weird in a way...

What are your goals in life?
To be the best version of myself even with flaws and mistakes.

How would you describe yourself?
Friendly, caring, cheerful, cute? Woooo did i juz mentioned all the good things? Hahaha :P

Tell me about your childhood?
I have some bad and sweet memories but i try not to blame anyone for that. I mean, i cant change it. Whats done is done right?

Give me 3 places you would like to go on a vacation?
A lot! But if i really have to choose 3, then it will be New York, Los Angeles and Paris. Can i add one more? Italy!!

Describe any accident you have seen or heard about?
My ex bf's brother Hadri got an accident last July and he passed away. Its a shame and a tragic lost actually cause he was asleep while driving and he got knocked into a lorry. Rest in peace Hadri.

When was the year you were the most happy and why?
15. First love and lots of great friends. I was a teenager that time. My life is not that great but it has lots of sweet memories. So definitely 2002 :)

When was the year you were not so happy and why?
2005 and 2006. Some shit happened but at least i still got my friends to keep me smiling. It was a terrible year for me and i wont forget it.

What turns you on about the opposite sex?
When they're so caring, sweet and funny

What turns you off about the opposite sex?
Show off, bad temper, sweet talker

What scares you the most and why?
Future. Cause my mind kept thinking that something bad will happen and i dont know if im ready to face it. I can be very negative sometimes...

What do you do in your free time?
Sleep? chilling with internet :)

Do you like chocolate?
Not really. But i do love Ferrero Rocher, Kinder Bueno and Daim!

Do you like rainy days or snowy winter days more?
Winter?? This is Malaysia lah.. Rainy days is okay but i dont like thunder storm!

Which is your favorite part of the human face and why?
The eyes cause it can tell so many things that the heart cant say. It can reach to your soul

What makes you bored?
Wondering what to do and you cant come up with anything!

Do you like spicy food and why?
Depends. But if its too spicy then no.

Which are your 2 favorite careers and why?
Scriptwriter cause i love to write and play with words. Or any jobs that can make u show your creativity. Involves art!

Which is the hardest thing you ever had to do?
Its a secret

Tell me about something you really regret?
When i was younger, i did lots of things without even think about the consequence.

Tell me about a mistake you made?
If its a mistake, then im gonna keep it to myself.

Tell me about someone in your family?
My lil brother is grown up. He dont want me to hold his hand when we went to the mall. Hahaha i think its cute! He's 11 and i still call him baby :)

Tell me about your favorite book, magazine or comic?
My favorite novel is by Kate Brian. She is genius! The story is juicier than Gossip Girl!

Tell me about someone you envy?
There's someone i really envy cause she has a high level of confident and i want that so bad!

Tell me about the last movie you've watched?
Life as we know it starring Josh Duhamel and Katherine Heigl. It was hilarious and of course Josh is soooooo yummy as usual! ;p

Tell me about your favourite music / song / band?
Seriously i cant pick one!

Tell me about something you would happily do again?
My last semester in UIA. They said that save the best for the last.

Name your 5 favorite foods?
Carbonara, Fried Kuey Teow, Roti Telur, Nasi Lemak, Pizza, French Fries, Vanilla Ice Cream and the list goes on........

Do you like to shop?
Hell yeah! Look at my closet!!

How often do you go online?
Most of the time when there's a connection and free time

Are you usually late, early or right on time?
Right on time i think?

Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Yep yep!

Your best friend dies, what would you do?
No idea!!

What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up on?
Friendship? i dont know lah

Are you old fashioned?
Sometimes...

If you could do anything OR wish for anything that would come true, what would you wish?
I wish that i could turn back the time. Soooo bad....

Whats your middle name?
Gorgeous?? hahahaha kiddin :)

How big is your bed?
Big enough for me to roll over and over!! :)

What music are you listening to right now?
Miley Cyrus! ;p

What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?
**** :)

What was the last thing you ate?
Red bean bun :)

Who was the last person you hugged?
My lil bro.

How is the weather right now?
Juz nice....

Okay, thats all for now. Im still bored. How la??? Should i sleep now cause i think i had too much already!! :(

Final days

Ok, where do i start? Words cant describe how im feeling right now. I have all this mixed up emotion and i dont know how to describe it. The time has finally come. I've been ignoring it as if it wont happen but it actually is. Its the end of my final semester in UIA. So u tell me how im suppose to feel. Im tired of feeling this way but i know that things will never be the same again. I've tried to be optimistic and keep telling myself that we will still be friends and nothing gonna change. But trust me, it will :(

The last day of my school year in Assunta, im not feeling sad at all. I dont give a damn about who im gonna miss the most. All i know is that im gonna leave and start a new life without turning back. But guess what? Im really fucking miss my school days! I wish that i spend more time with them and not taking things for granted. How i wish we can go back to the old days. So, right now, even when i still have few days left before i actually leave UIA, im really sad cause i know how much im gonna miss it and all the people that i met there. All the laugh and tears that they gave me will always remain in my memories. Time flies really fast and the next thing u know, its over.

I still feel like yesterday when i enter UIA in Gombak with a high determination to be a better person. How naive was i? 4 years has taught me a lot about people and im able to see this life in a different perspective. Im not judging people anymore cause i know there's always a story behind every action. Ive seen a lot of things and it has taught me a lesson that i will always remember for years to come.

During my first year in UIA, i am invisible. I got no friends and i eat alone at the cafe. Not that im complaining but it will be much fun if u have someone who accompany you right? During my first year, all i did is juz go to class, and go back to my room, watch movie alone and sleep like there's no tomorrow. So i guess im quiet independent cause i know how to have fun alone. On that time, all i could think about is i cant wait to get out from UIA and start working.

My life in UIA started to change when i reached 2nd level. I got more friends and i no longer eating alone. I have someone now. I started received an invitation to hang out and stuff and i enjoyed every second of it. The longer im in UIA, the more i love it. I love all the people and all the smile that i got when i bummed to peoples that i know and also the lecturers. I have so many close friends now and the fact that we're going to be separate and have our own life is pretty bizarre.

I wish that no matter how far we go, we will always remain friends and still keep in touch. I dont want it to be over just like that. I know im gonna meet more friends in the future but i still wanna keep my old friends cause they mean so much to me. Some of them, ive juz know them for months only. not even half a year but i feel like i have known them for years! how i wish i know them earlier so that we can spend more time together. I guess it is true when people said that 'save the best for last'. My final days in UIA probably one of the best thing that happened in me. While i still have few days left before they're gone, im gonna spend it wisely cause i know im gonna miss them so much! Tears are not enough.

p/s : will update when i feel like updating...

t.e.a.r.s

Found this quote by Alex Tan :

Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clearer view again

Right now, if i feel angry or sad, i usually cry and i never hold it. Sometimes i even have to go to the toilet. Yeah, i am a drama queen but that is how i deal with stress and sadness. I feel so much better after i cry my eyes out! Sobbing alone in the toilet may look like im weak eh? I dont care cause it works for me. If i dont cry, i might throwing tantrum and get mad like nuts! So which one is better?

I prefer to shut my mouth and let my eyes deal with it. Alone. Life is a bitch. Cry it out! Life is beautiful. Smile it out. Right now i wanna cry first. Maybe tomorrow i will smile again. Right?

P/s : No worries, the next thing i know, i'll be smiling and laughing like shit again. Hehe...

I've seen it all

I've seen a situation where :

looks is not important to make people fall in love with. Its the attitude and kindness that counts.

people judge others from what they saw but the truth can be ugly.

a friend took an advantage of her bff

bright aura can light up the place even when that person is not that pretty

people are intimidated by others

a boy can be selfish like hell

a girl can be selfish like hell

someone suddenly shut their friend off cuz it reminds of their dirty secrets

someone have a low self esteem and damaging their self

people can keep the darkest secret just to continue breathing and smile

someone value friendship but others dont give a shit about it

a girl can sacrifice all the time just bcuz she love the friendship with that bitch

its a masquerade party all the way

Every day i witnessed lots of things. I've seen it all.

Open Hse & Friendship :)

I really dont know what to say cause there's so may things going on for the past few weeks. Hmm, kerja yang x pernah la nak selesai. Well it is my fault cause suka sangat tangguh kerja. So whose to blame? Me! yeah. Hehehehe. Anyway, i wanna talked about my Raya open house last 2 weeks. Now i have a chance to blog about it cause i've been so busy. So here it goes...

I woke up as early as 7 am that morning just to continue preparing all the foods for the open house. Been working since the day before and still x siap2 lagi. Lots of things to do and kerja aku goreng ayam je. And just kemas2 mana yang patut. I told my friends that it will start at 2pm onwards. So around 1.30pm tu baru lah nak mandi. Mandi pagi tau. Hahaha. X lama lepas tu Syaz called me ckp dah sampai. X sempat aku nak touch up lagi wey! Hehe. But im glad that at least someone came. And not long after that Alif pulak datang dgn Fareeza, Faizal, Amin and Shahira. So, they are among the earliest to arrived. After that makin ramai plak yang datang from Uia and also Assuntarians. Im so happy!

This is Nabila. She is my bestfriends when i was little. I have known her since i was 9 and we're pretty close when we're in high school but high school drama always exists so we had a fight like few days after SPM exam is over and we've lost contact for years. Im really pissed with her during that time but now its been ages and she's married now and has a child so aku dah malas nak gaduh lama2. Its so high school so i decided to invite her. I cant even recall back why im so mad at her before. Funny huh? But im glad that we're good now. As if we never fight before.

And they said that friendship will last long if its a true friendship. Hehe.

Terkejut jgk cuz Rowiena datang dgn Naziera. Omg, its been ages. Last jumpa mase spm and after that, mmg senyap. At first both of them x nak masuk cuz x pakai baju raya, tapi aku tarik jgk. Relax la. X kan juz bcuz x pkai baju raya x nak masuk plak kan. Dan la lama gila x jumpa. hehe. Diorg ni pemalu sket depan camera kot? Really, ini pun dapat snap cuz dah nak balik. Mase ramai2 amik gambar, diorg x nak join. Sebok nak mkn je :P

Like Qila said, Juz like the old times... Hell yeah! Omg, kitorg ni dulu siblings tau. Qila is Along, im Angah and Fiera the middle one is Acik. Pffttt :) We're very close mase darjah 5 cuz kitorg ni librarian kat Assunta Primary dulu. We have sooooooo many sweet memories together and we still can laugh it out loud even until today when we recall back! Fiera mase darjah 5 is the smallest, the shortest but now dia la plak yang paling tinggi. Damn. Now, aku plak la yang pendek. Its okey, short is cute eh? I didnt say that, People did. Hehehe....

May this friendship will last long. Kan kan? hehe :)

Ini, geng shindoi but Nadia An & Syaz are not here. Im very close with them especially mase form 3. When i talked to them, mcm2 bahasa yang minah dua ni gunakan. Macam bahasa Thai pun ade.

Shindoi la wey! Hahahaha

Amalina, Ain, me, Tasya, Zetti and Qila. Glad that the three musketeers datang jugak haritu. Dgn Qila ade la jugak jumpa after high school but Zetti and Tasya memang dah lama x jumpa. Perangai still sama macam dulu. Cracked me up as usual! hehehe. Ama pun sama. Makin sihat kau kan? Hehe, wedding kau invite aku tau :)

Ni geng2 UIA or geng IIUM.FM. Diorg ni pun best jgk! Asyik nak gelak and bergossip je. Umm, im not talking about Munir and Fadly eh. Kononya lelaki kan x bergossip...Kiss my ass la! Haha. Thanx to Amni cuz bawakan diorg ni smua dtg rumah aku.

Ni geng2 Assunta. Ramai betul yg datang haritu smpi x terlayan. From left, Erlin, Aput, Nurul, Shafiza, Acak, me, Fareeza, Zetti, Qila and Tasya. I juz love this picture. Surprisingly, even dah lama x jumpa pun, its not awkward at all talking to them!

Apek Ah chong pun dtg jugak. Mamat cina ni lagi la lama gila x jumpa. Last jumpa mase form 2 okey! almost 10 years. Bapak tinggi gila dia skrg. I used to have a huge crush on him when i was 13. Everyday i called him. Macam stalker x? Haha. rasanya, dia still simpan kot all the love letters yang aku bg kat dia dulu. Haha, wanie....wanie.... :) Thanx for coming Chong, Juz like u said...'Jejak Kasih'. :) u always with that goofy looks and that mischievous grin..... hehe

Anyway, there are lots of photos in my Facebook but malas gila nak letak smua kat sini. I really had a good time with them after ages of not meeting each other. Owh, and i have a new quote that i created myself. Philosopher huh? :P

' Friends are my couture. Hopefully they will last long. Just like Prada! ♥ '

Adorable princess Qila

Kampung tercinta!

Ok so Raya celebration is over. I mean the first week cuz now is the time where everyone are so busy with their open house. Ye lah, kata orang kita puasa sebulan so raya pun sebulan lah. Hahaha. Had so much fun spending time with my family and cousins. Its hard for us to meet up so Hari Raya is the perfect time where we can all get together and of course gossiping! Hahaha.

I have a new addiction. Her name is Aqila. Abg Tahir's daughter. She's only 2 years old and she has to call me mak cik. Ummm no. Aunty would be nice.... Hehe. Omg she is the cutest thing ever! Sangat comel and sangat manja. She's ok with everyone and when she talked, her voice is super soft and super sweet. And the best part is, we share the same thick eyebrow! High five sista! hehehe. Here she is........

Dont u juz wanna bite this tiny thinggy?? Hehehehe :)

Pandai posing kan budak ni? :)

Our thick eyebrow are the limited edition. Precious! Hehehe :)

Suka buat muka comel dia! Geram lah!

I think this is like the thousand times i kissed her! hehehe :)

Smile to the camera Qila :)

P/s : I want one...... Insyallah one day. Amin :)