Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Diary

Last night, i got nothing else to do but im not sleepy yet. So, i decided to read my old diaries. I mean really old. As early as im 14 years old. So, basically diary tu dah almost 10 years. Mase baca tu ade la gelak sorang2 cuz teringat balik zaman jahilliyah. So many funny things happened that i jotted it down. But one thing that i hate when i read my diary is, it reminds me back of how stupid i am.

Ive done lots of stupid things years back when i was teenager. Sometimes i cant accept it and i wish i can go back to that time. And when i read back all my resolutions, i end up crying like hell cuz most of it never happen although im almost 23 yrs old now. I got goosebumps when i read it. I feel like it was yesterday everything happened. Time is running so fast i didnt realize it.

Sedih sgt bila life yg kita nak sgt when we're not teenagers, kita x dpt. I taught life will be so much better when we get older. Thats what i taught when i was teenagers. When i was in school. I said to myself, its okey. My life will be better any years from now. Its not like im not happy with what i have achieved so far but i feel like there are lots of things i didnt accomplish and i dont think i can anytime from now. Hmm, how?

I wanna play the guitar, the piano, the drum. Hmm, but i blamed myself. Aku ni nak mcm2 but i dont wanna work for it. Hmm, thats why la. Kalau betul2 nak, sure i'll work for it but aku ni kuat berangan je. How? But one thing for sure yang paling aku nak, aku nak travel all around the world but wheres the money la?? duit x de?? sape nak belanje? haha.


P/s : My diary collection dah bole buat library. Bila baca, seronok ada, sakit hati pun ada.....

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