Back to reality!

Adoi, bosan nye cuti raya dah habis. Im still in a mood for raya lah. Open house maybe? Anyone? Jgn malu2 jemput aku ok! Haha. Seriously, i need to stop eating now! Asyik nak makan je time raya nie. 2 weeks semester break is over and as usual, aku akan merungut everytime cuti dah habis. Mase nak balik raya, omg mmg aku dah set dlm otak aku to forget about all the stress and the shitty things that happened to me and i said to myself that i just want to enjoy raya. Forget about assignments, mid terms. Screw it! Haha. Now when the holiday is over, i guess i have to go back to reality.

Even when i have tried to motivated myself to always think positive, sometimes it still cant help it. But what to do? what other choice i have? Kalau nak rehat goyang kaki je kat rumah, g kawin lah! Jadi suri rumah 24/7 which is sooo not gonna happen! Haha.

Ok, tomorrow i really need to start study for mid terms. Nasib baik la i have prepared the notes earlier, x lah kabut sgt. I just have to read and understand it and hopefuly bole buat mid term dgn baik. My mid term will be on this coming tuesday. Then i have to start preparing for my Parenting class assignments which i still dont know what i have to do actually. Haha. Typical me!

I checked the calendar before so i have like around 1 month for classes then final exam will start. Omg, there goes one more sem and the next thing i know i will be leaving UIA. Haha. Sometimes rase sekejap je, sometimes rase lame plak. Macam2! But one thing i know i have to do now is to breathe and take it easy. Tension2 pon x gune. X menyelesaikan masalah pon. Am i right?

Anyway, since my sem break is not officially over, mood raya pon ade lg so aku upload sket la some of Raya's picture. Malas nak upload semua. :)

Al-Kisah Hari Raya

Its the 6th day of raya already and im already back home. I still feel like it was yesterday i was busy packing my stuff to go to my Kampung. Its just a blink of an eye and everything is over. My getaway is over. Hmm, i dont know why i called it a getaway. Maybe because i need a break from my busy life in campus. Yeah, thats what i need! I was so happy to go back to celebrate Hari Raya with my family and cousins. Duit raya pon bole tahan byk jgk but i dont think i have to mention brape jumlah duit raya aku this year. Remain secret. Hehe.

Tapi, time raya ni lah mcm2 kisah aku nak cerite cause this is the time a lot of things happened and it made me realized about something. I am so sick with my uncles and aunties attitude. Seriously i had enough of it. Everytime bila balik raya they will start asking me question yang to me agak annoying. Contohnye 'Bile nak grad? Amik course ape? Knape lambat sgt grad?' and so on. Diorg mcm pandang rendah gile kat aku and i know that they think course mass comm cam hampeh je. Kire mcm course yang cikang la x bole hidup. Excuse me? Ni bukan zaman 'ibu mertuaku' ok yang nak kene jadi lawyer, engineer, doctor baru bole hidup! Sumpah boring! Get a life la. Im so gonna prove to them yang course yang aku amik ni bole buat aku senang later in future. Just wait and see and when that time comes, diorg x bole nak ckp ape lg and i will laugh like hell! Haha.

My uncles and aunties ni mcm banggakan sgt pasal anak diorg. Cerite kat aku mcm mane their life duduk kat MRSM. Please lah. Like i care. Bile my uncle cerite aku nak tergelak pon ade. My uncle ni punye mcm dah bagus la cerite kat aku, anak dia mmg x bole tgk tv. Mmg my uncle ni kawal ketat gile la anak dia ni. Then i said to myself, sampai bile dia nak kontrol? For how long? Kalau dah terlalu control sgt, then once bile anak dia dah masuk university, and on that time my uncle dah x bole nak control lg, haha time tu mmg anak dia akan culture shock habis lah! Silap2 bole rosak terus anak dia weyh. And if anak dia nnt continue study kat luar negara, i dont know what else to say. Mmg culture shock to the max! In my opinion, thats not the right way to treat your children. If you think by controlling them is the best way, think again. For how long you want to control them? Sooner or later they will grow up and they need to do certain things like what teenagers usually normally do. I mean not the bad stuff la. Kalau guna internet pon x bole lansung, just imagine mcm mane anak dia nak survive nnt bile masuk university.Kalau gune google pon x reti, mcm mane kan. Susah la hidup.

Lagi sorang my uncle ni mmg slalu sgt pandang rendah kat aku. Cam bagus je. He always think that anak-anak dia tu bagus sgt. But the truth is. anak dia sendiri yang cerite kat aku yang dia kuar with this guy and that guy and i dont think the father which is my uncle know the real character anak dia ni. Aku geleng kepala je cause i know the truth. Everytime balik kampung, judging is common. Its normal already.

Sometimes i think that my uncles and my aunties ni treat their childrens like a product. They invest money for them so they can go to tuition. They sent them to tuition so that their children will know the spot questions for the exam like UPSR, PMR and SPM. Then bile anak dia dapat straight A's, mula la berlagak nak mampos. Gi kecoh satu kampung pasal anak diorg ni.Please lah. Kat kampung hari tu, my cousins asyik kene marah je dgn their parents cause diorg dah nak exam so like every hour diorg check anak diorg study ke x. Omg, this is so sick! In fact, my cousins pon came to me and tell me their problems. Diorg ckp diorg tension sgt their parents buat diorg mcm tue. I totally understand. Aku kesian jgk kat diorg ni. Ade sorang org kampung aku ni cerite kat aku yang pak cik dia ni pon suke sgt mengutuk org. Anak org tu dia nak kutuk, anak org ni pon dia nak kutuk. But he have no idea mcm mane perangai anak dia yang sebenarnye. Everyone taught that anak dia ni baik giler la. But the truth is, anak dia ni kaki minum weyh. Kaki clubbing smpi pagi. Kalau bapak dia tau, mmg terkejut giler lah. Haha. Sick sick sick.

I just hope that based on what i have seen so far, i hope that it can help me to become a good parent later in future. Aku x nak anak2 aku rase tension smpi mcm ni. Seriously kesian. So yeah this is what i called Al-Kisah Hari Raya. Mcm2 cerite, mcm2 ragam org. Anyway, gambar raya x bole nak upload cuz laptop aku buat hal plak. L8er maybe. Last but not least, dont judge cause its........ sick!

Best buffet ever!

Last Sunday, me and my family went to Atrium Sunway to buka puase. My cousin and my uncle aunty pon join same. So overall 10 org la. Memang best! Last year pon pernah skali buka puase kat sane. Atrium punye buffet seorg mmg la mahal but its totally worth it! Aku pon x tau how many calories dah masuk dalam badan aku just for one meal haha. Ok recall back makan ape. Hmm, start with seafood, then mihun dgn daging, then satay, puding susu, cake, air grape 3 glass! Omg, gile ok! Kalau nak ikutkan nak makan lagi but nanti takut meletop plak perut! Haha.

Kalau dah smpi sini mmg dah lupe diet. Screw diet la. Kalau nak diet better x yah g buffet kan? Haha. Tapi lepas makan mule la sebok nak timbang berat badan. Makanan yang paling best that nite is the seafood and puding susu. Tersangat sedap. Memang terbaik lah! Udang dia sgt fresh!

I love to eat prawn tapi malas gile nak kopek kulit udang so kat sini dah tersedia kopek tinggal nak makan je. Ha, ape lagi kan? Memang melantak lah! Mushroom dia pon so damn juicy! But this time salmon fish plak x de. Sedey. Puding susu dia pon terbaik! At first mase aku amik tu i taught that was cheese cake, tapi puding susu. So creamy ok! Aku amik 2 slices. Time tu dah nak habis dah so aku amik la dua. Then lepas dah habis, aku nak lg then aku tgk dah habis! Sedih! Kalau aku tau puding dia sedap mcm ni aku amik byk2 tadi! Hopefuly next year ade lg.

Seriously, buka puase kat sana sgt best! Lagi best dari berbuka kat Singgahsana hotel! Singgahsana hotel tu makanan dia smua makanan melayu. Dah la sesak nak mampos! Dah mcm dekat bazar ramadhan plak.

Puase tinggal lagi 2 hari and insyallah raya this Sunday. Cant wait! Baju raya tahun ni aku ade 3 pasang. Semua cantik tau! Haha. Will stay in kampung for 1 week then lepas tu sebok dgn open house lah ape lagi. Famous Malaysian tradition! Org Malaysia ni mmg kuat makan! Betul tak? :)

Its been 13 years!

Yep, its been 13 years! Time is running like tissue. Nama budak ni Zafirah Saufi. Omg, how can i desribe her in words? Hmm, one thing for sure, no matter what happen, me and Fiera will remain friends forever. The first time i talked to her was in 1996. Sgt lama kan? On that time, both of us in different class. Tapi once a week ade PTS class so my class combine dgn class dia. Aku duduk la sebelah dia. Omg she is so tiny! Kecik nak mati. Mcm budak tadika pon ade but look at her now! Lagi tinggi dari aku kot. Cheit! On that time i still remember pencil box dia Tom & Jerry. Ahaha comel je kan? Ingat x pencil box yang ade 2 side tu? Then ade tempat letak pencil and the eraser. I think zaman skrg budak2 dah x pakai dah pencil box mcm tu. Haha classic weyh! Time tu she is so nice to me. Then baru aku ingat dia ni pon skolah agama same dgn aku jgk. Since then baru la aku start ckp2 dgn dia. Mase kat skolah agama, bila time semayang, aku suke tgk dia pakai telekung! Cute to the max! Aku suke cubit pipi dia! Haha, i dont think she remember all this but thanks to my memory.

1997-1999, darjah 4 smpi darjah 6 we're getting closer. Mase darjah lima both of us jadi librarian. Skema! I know! Badan dia kecik gile ok bila pakai uniform librarian tu. I still remember every friday librarian kene stay in the library for 1 hour to clean up the book shelves. Susun balik buku according to the number and so on. But me and Fiera got better things to do. We play hide and seek! Yes, dah darjah 5 pon nak main nyorok2 lg. Mcm budak2! Haha! Kalau time aku nyorok senang je dia nak jumpe aku but bile time dia plak nyorok, omg susah gile nak jumpe because she is so small! Dia selalu menyorok kat blakang rak buku, so mmg aku x nampak lah. Sometimes bawah meja pon dia bole muat!

Lepas tu plak, every Friday, me and Fiera ade swimming class for 1 hour kat Kelab Syabas. At first aku join dulu then when i told her how exciting and fun it was, then dia pon nyebok jgk nak join! Yang poyo tu, swimming suit dia mcm ballerina! Yang mcm skirt tu! Haha. Baju nak cantik tapi berenang pon fail. How many times instructor tu dah ajar pon still tenggelam! Hahaha! Lawak je. Org lain semua dah ke next level. Org lain dah berenang kat tempat dalam. Dia still struggle kat tempat yang bole pijak kaki tu. Haish, kesian plak aku tgk budak kecik ni, then aku pon g la teman dia kat tempat cetek sampai la dia lulus. Then finally baru la dia bole masuk tempat dalam, then bila dah smpi tempat dalam, penakut plak! Haish. Org dah berenang patah balik, dia still x nak lepas tangga swimming pool tu. Haha. Lawak betul!

Darjah 6 plak, our hormones makin menjadi2! Haha, both of us berebut nak Dwayne Johnson. Or better known as The Rock! Haha. jgn main2! We know everything about him. Buku biography The Rock pon nak beli jgk. Theres one time Geraldine, one of our close friend dulu pretend like interview Fiera. Then Geraldine asked ' How long you two had sex together?' and Fiera dgn selamba pon jawab ' From 2 to 5 am!' Hahaha. Aku gelak mcm nak mati weyh! x padan dgn kecik, tapi otak bole tahan! Mase darjah 6, AJ from BSB pon budak ni layan. Fanatik nak mati. Everyday mention about AJ. Ahhh, those were the time of boy band. No one can resist. Aku pon layan but i like Kevin! Hehe.

Thank god mase form 1, we both still in the same school. Yep yep, Assunta for life! But too bad, we're not in the same class anymore. Dia class atas, aku class bwh sikit. Ye lah, UPSR dia lagi ok dari aku. Heh. Mase form 1, sekolah ptg so pagi tu mmg aku slalu lepak rumah dia. Theres one time ni, kitorg lapar so decide nak goreng nugget. X tau la, kat mane silapnye, nugget tu jadi lembik. Bile makan i feel like chewing wet tissue! Euw! Haha. Bodo jer. Mase form 1 nampak sket la badan dia ni dah naik. I mean her height. Tapi, badan dia naik mendadak mase form 2. Seriously bertukar! Aku plak yang remain terbantut! Chet! Then i asked her whats her secret bole tinggi mcm ni and you know what she said? ' Aku byk makan daging!'. Kepala otak kau! Makan daging byk kalau nak gemok! Haha, then she said everytime bila dia tersedu, jgn minum air cuz time tu la ketinggian akan naik. Adoi, ape punye doctor la dia ni!

Mase form 3 kesamdolan kitorg makin menjadi2! Makin budak2 rasenye! Haha. Tapi mase form 3 is the phase where we are searhing for identity. Time ni mcm2 crisis la ade. At first dressing mcm ni, then dressing mcm tu plak. Fiera time ni dah makin ganas sket. Dah x layan BSB but prefer Blink 182 instead. Haha. Mcm2 lah. On that time kitorg joined this group called 'The Shindoi' dan ahli2 nye ialah Me, Fiera, Syaz, Ain n Nadia. Yep, our very own club. Club ini mengggunakan pelbagai bahasa yang sumtimes pelik sumtimes lawak. For example like Suntadey, Shinna, Shintala wey, Shintala wey wey dan bermcm lg. Hmm, whats the meaning of this words pon i have no idea but we always use it just for fun.

Masuk form 4 aku sama class dgn dia. Tapi x lama cuz she moved to other school. Rumah pon dah duduk jauh kat Shah Alam. Sedih sgt. But what to do. Ade la jgk once in a while, we talked on the phone tapi dah jarang la. Masing2 dah ade life sendiri. But when SPM is over, ntah mcm mane both of us become close again. Hmm maybe through Myspace kot. See, sape kate internet ni byk keburukan? Hehe. Start from there we become close again. Every semester break, we always make a plan for gathering. But sumtimes agak susah jgk la cuz we're busy so everytime bile dapat jumpe we will have a good time and appreciate it because we know mmg susah nak jumpe. Last Sunday, me, Fiera and Syaz berbuka puase kat Mid Vall. We captured it a lot so that we will always remember the moment. Bila jumpe asyik nak gelak je. Always with our jokes! Stupid jokes actually tapi yang bodo tu la yang lawak! Haha.

I really hope this friendship will last forever. To be honest, of all my friends, dgn Fiera la aku paling byk ade sweet memories that i will never get rid of. More memories to come as we grow older and more exciting life experience we will face and i hope we will always be there for each other. Love u lots Fiera! xoxo

p/s : Credits to Syaz for taking this beautiful pics. Jgn kate aku curik gambar kau plak weyh!

What kind of Phobia is this?

I think, each and everyone of you people ade certain phobia. Kadang2 tu yang merepek2 pon ade. Takut dgn tinggi la, takut tikus la. Mcm my mum, sgt takut dgn katak. Me, im more of the girl yg takut tikus! Ok, now i have figured it out that ade lagi satu benda yang aku takut sgt and i dont know what should i call it. Maybe future phobia. Yes, im so obsessed about my future and what its gonna be like.

Theres always a question in my head. Stupid ridiculously question la. For example like, i always obssesed about what will happen to me in 10 years time. What if i didnt get any job? What if my current boyfriend that im so in love with for almost 6 years will not be my future husband? What will happen to me if i cant have my own child? What will happen to me if my husband is seeing someone else behind my back? What if he wants to marry other women? What if something bad happen to me that i cant think of anything else beside taking pills and off to the grave? And the question of 'what if' goes on and on non stop! Seriously pathetic and stupid of me to think about all this but i cant help it. Always there in my head. Padehal, benda ni semua lambat lg then why i have to think about it? Thats the problem!

Is it just me or is there anyone else have the same phobia like me? I hope so. If not, i am so sick and need to consult with someone. Im scared to death to think about this crap. Yes, it is crap! And why i still think about this? I have no idea. Maybe i should have strong faith in everything. I want to be that girl who is strong and can face anything. But im so afraid that im so fragile and weak. Can i handle this situation? Omg, please. I hope all the 'what if' things that i kept thinking wont happen to me. Slalu la jgk aku doa so that all the bad things wont happen. But i know, mane ade life yang senang. Ade la jgk once in a while we will face certain problems and obstacles but hopefuly tak la teruk sgt. I dont think i can handle that well. Hopefuly, my future will be okey. And hopefuly this stupid phobia will fade away. I love myself and i dont want anything bad happen to me. Insyallah.

Bohsia

Hmm, dah tgk ceite bohsia? Hmm, tgk lah, then let me know what you think of this movie. To me, this movie ade la yg ok and ade yg ko. Tapi hero dia handsome weyh! Rempit pon rempit lah! Hahah! I just watched this movie. Ceite ni agak pelik sket. Cause, i think this movie has no intro, no climax and no ending. Just simple story. At first, i taught what the hell? Then bile pike balik, sape yang buat rules kate semua filem kena ade climax plak kan? To me, filem kalau cerite tu bagus dah cukup. X de climax pon x pe. Sumtimes, ceite2 yg lain, climax ade but no moral values lansung. Then what for? Aku rase ceite ni kalau org betul2 concentrate and feel it, this is one great movie.

Stop comparing Malaysian film dgn Hollywood cause admit it, we are far left behind. If we keep comparing our local movies dgn Hollywood's masterpiece mmg smpi bile2 lah x kan menang. Judge the movie based on the story and no comparing. From there, we can know if the film is good or not. Ok lah, ceite ni ade la a few scene yang agak dirty and sx yang aku x brape agree sgt but the truth is scene2 yang mcm ni la yang bole buat kan org sedar yg kite x nak smpi jadi mcm tu. As a women, kite tak nak org treat kite mcm sampah dlm ceite bohsia ni. So kalau x de scene2 yang mcm ni, mmg kurang feel. Kesedaran tu x de. But kalau amik pelakon yang bukan islam pon lagi better i think. X la controversy sgt.

Aku tertarik nak tgk filem ni cause i have read in the newspaper before review about this movie and so far more to positive. The cast pon, bukan muka2 typical filem mcm Fasha Sandha and Rosyam Nor. Pelakon2 smua yang usually berlakon drama je. So, its good la at least x la bosan sgt. I like Amy's character. Super fierce! No wonder la menang award haritue kat Festival Filem Malaysia. Watak Acai pon mmg rempit habis lah. Rase nak sepak je! But x nak, sebab dia comel! Haha.

Once in a while, jgn la dok layan ceite Hollywood je. Balance kan lah jgk. Ceite local pon tgk la jgk cause the truth is, ade jgk local film yang bagus. Tgk dulu baru nilai. Tapi, ceite Bohsia ni mmg different. Aku pon cam pelik cuz ceite ni x de climax cuz ceite dia simple je but full with something. Huh, ape aku ckp nih? x pe lah, biar aku sorang je faham. Hopefuly, one day aku boleh buat ceite mcm ni. X jadi director pon x pe but if miracle do exists then katekanlah one of my story di jadikan drama or filem and the director is Syamsul, Ahmad Idham, Kabir Bhatia or Rashid Sibir, omg terharu ok! Seronok giler! Insyallah one day. Nak sgt. But i dont know if i have the talent or not but i will try.When you do something that you enjoy and you love, you will never get bored. Thats what i've been telling myself. So, Bohsia mmg superb! the cast is superb! Cinematography pon superb! Cheers to Shamsul Yusof!