Why so serious?

Hey peeps. Its been awhile, i know. I've been busy lately and i dont really like to blog when im not in the mood so that explains. So what i wanna blog about? Hmm, lately, i feel like im taking this life way too serious? To the point when i feel like its wrong to even laugh and smile! Aiyoooo thats dangerous la. I might get a depression if i continue like this. Or am i already depressed? Well, that is subjective so its hard for me to say. But what i know is that, im so serious lately. Yes, i have some happy time when i go crazee and all but i know myself better and i know that the beginning of this year is not that good. I repeat, not good!

But its beyond my control and what's done is done. No point if i wanna continue to be sad about it. Im trying my very best to look forward but all i could think about is my past. Why is it so hard for me to let go the past? Somebody said that i am selfish cuz i dont want the time to go. Well, its true..

I admit that the future makes me scared. But stuck in the past also is scary. Part of me still back during the days. Every time when i hang out with my school friends, i always talked about our school time together especially all the stupid jokes that we used to laugh before. And they said that, i always talked about it every time we met. So, is that bad? :(

And now, since im no longer UIA student, i miss that life so much that it brought tears to my eyes when i think about the fact that it wont be the same again. That time has gone. All just a memories now.

P/s : I guess i really miss the old times

Money cant buy happiness. U think?

Hey peeps! how u're doin? Guess what? I have a doubts now! This is not good. I hate this feeling. The feeling of not sure what do you want and u cant choose because you're confuse. Get it? Yeah, it sounds weird but.... hmmmm how can i put it in words? Have u ever wonder why some homeless people still able to smile and juz live the day? Have you ever wonder why the rich people sometimes have no time at all to chill and have fun? Have you ever wonder why people said that money cant buy happiness?

But in Gossip Girl, Blair Waldorf used to said that those who believed in that quote actually dont know where to shop! What a materialistic! Then again, everyone wants to have lots of money and we tend to assumed that when we have money, there will be no problem. Anything that you wanna get, anything that you wanna do, you can get it all done. Just like that!

But have you ever wonder that sometimes, to be happy doesn't mean that we have to spend the money. What i mean is, its who u're with and how much you treasure the moments can still make you happy right? For some kids, they dont need to go to Disneyland to have the fun. They dont have to get the latest Playstation to have the fun. Whenever they're with their friends and just play some silly, stupid games, did you see how happy they were? Isn't that simple?



Whats your definition of happy? For me, im not sure because back then im really sure what i want. All i want is to have a really good job and have a good money so i can do whatever i like anytime i want. But i realize that its a long way. You're gonna face lots of pressure, tension and struggle to get there. And that is if you're lucky. Sometimes, people work really hard but they still didn't get there. Don't you think its exhausting that you have been studying for years and you have prepared yourself for future since you were a kid! That's pretty exhausting right? Your parents depends on you to get a good result so that they can impressed other people with our achievement. Its a burden that we have to carry with us for years! You have to get a good result to get into University, then its another struggle cause u must get a really good cgpa to get a good job. And when you got a job, u have to work hard to get a better position and better income.


So when is the time that you can actually lay back and dont have to think about it? By the time, you already got a good income, you will realize that you're 40! And you know that time really flies that you didn't get a chance at all to have fun when you're young. What a waste!!


For me, i have lots of needs. I love to go shopping and i wanna travel all around the world. But i need lots of money to fulfill all that dreams. In order to get that, i have to work my ass off. Have to sacrifice a lot of things. But by that time, im already old! Sometimes i kept asking myself, why im struggling so hard to impress those people i dont even like! Such a waste of time dont you think? Sometimes i think that if im a simple girl, who doesn't need 30 handbags and 10 jeans in the closet, my life will be better and no pressure. I dont demand too much when it comes to salary. I juz work, and get the money with no pressure.

Maybe just work at restaurant as waitress or something. When i get the money, i spend it wisely and still know how to have fun. Maybe juz chilling with family and friends for a picnic or just watch movie and play bowling. That wasn't bad right? But then again, im not that girl. That kind of a girl will keep doing the same thing again and again and just for the sake of money to continue living. But for me, i wanna do lots of different things. I wanna travel and see other culture. I wanna go shopping anytime that i like. But part of me wish that im just a simple girl who doesn't give a shit at all about that things. My life will be simpler and more fun!



I really wish that i can go travel and have a better future. But at the same time, i don't want to be that kind of a girl who are so obsess with her job and have no time at all to relax and enjoy. I wanna be fun all the way even when i know that there will be lots of thunderstorm along the way. Am i ready for that? Hopefully.

P/s : Brooklyn bridge, stay there! I will come someday!

2011 & New job

Hey peeps! Guess what? its 2011 already. Duh, like u dont know. Well, hows your celebration? Mine was quiet and boring but at least i got to spend some quality time with my family and cousins. Around 11 pm last night i was thinking about what will be my resolution. I was flipping through my diary and tapping the pen but still i have no idea what to write in it. Sometimes the things that u didnt plan can turn out to be the best thing that ever happen to you for that year. So basically, what i wrote is that, i juz wanna be a better person. Hmmm, if u ask anyone, that will also be their resolution right? Hahaha. me too.

I cant believe i will turn 24 this year. Time really flies. Its scary sometimes to think about what will happen next and when i think about it again, there are something that i can control and some are destiny and faith that will bring me to the future. So, its not like i leave everything to god. I do have my own plans but i already learned my lesson. I dont wanna plan too much cause things might not happen the way i want it to be so i will just go with the flow.

For now, i have a job and i love it. Okay, maybe i juz like it. But at least i got a job. Ok, here's the reason why i like my job:

1) I love news editing

2) My boss is super nice and he's a malay

3) My office in near to KLCC so i have no problem about transportation

4) I really enjoyed the fact that my office is so close to KLCC n i feel very sophisticated when i walked there to my office. Hehehe

5) The toilet is clean!!!!

6) My office mate are cool

7) They have the best Karipap sardin!

But too bad, there are few things that i dont really like about my job

1) Starts at 10 until 6. On Friday, maybe 8 pm! Thank god Saturday and Sunday is holiday

2) It is super cold there! Maybe i should have a pashmina or something

3) The news that i suppose to edit is islamic finance news. Hello? Im so bimbo about that la!

4) I have to bring my own laptop everyday.... maybe for the time being

5) The food is super expensive

I guess thats it. We will see how it goes. Well, of course im excited about it. Super excited. But to be honest i dont like to work following working hours. I prefer to do anything that i like as a freelance job. That way, i can work whenever i like and i can enjoy anytime that i want. So if i work from monday to friday almost until night, that means now i have to divide my time for my family, my boyfriend, and my friends. It wont be easy. Im gonna miss them. But i will try my best to spend my time with them. After all, they are my source of strength, and happiness. What would i do without them.

This is the start for me to save up all the money to make my dreams come true. Los Angeles, New York, Paris, i will see you soon!

Los Angeles

New York, (Brooklyn)

Paris