I despise gay & lesbian

Its scary when i started to think how weird and drastic this world has changed. What is going to happen in 20 years time? I seriously cant imagine. People now are so focusing on trying to be individual and not afraid at all to show the world their true colors and their identity. I mean, its good for them to show their identity but what if the things that they are exposing is against the nature? To make it worse, it spread like a virus!

Im talking about gay and lesbian. I despise the idea of it. Seriously. A man need a woman and same goes the other way. Thats the nature. Thats how human population will grow! The idea of same sex love really disgust me. I mean, theres nothing wrong to care about someone with the same sex but to actually marrying them? Its ridiculous! Lots of country are fighting their right to have a same sex marriage. What the hell is this?

Its bullshit when they said that they are born that way. Theres no such thing as you're born to be gay or lesbian. You want to change it and dont put the blame on god. In fact, if i have no desire towards my opposite sex, i'd rather stay alone and just adopt a child. Instead of going against the nature! What happen if everyone become gay and lesbian? It will be the end of human species. That is so bizzarre!

Seriously i against lesbianism and gayism. Always was and always will. If only i have the power to control this stupid idealism. Its spreading really fast! In fact here in Malaysia, its pretty normal. Lots of celebrity also claimed and admit that they are gay and lesbian. Ellen Degeneres, Adam Lambert, Elton John, Lance, Clay Aiken and the list goes on. They are a public figure. Im just afraid that all their fans will start to think that theres nothing wrong of being gay and lesbian. I pity the young generations because they will surrounded with a weird environment and they kind of like have to decide if they are straight or gay. Who should we blame? I belived that its all come down to you.

Mikaeel

Last few days i went to Mid Valley to watched Michael Jackson This Is It. Actually everyone is busy and not answering my calls so i just decided to watched it alone. Trust me its not that bad. Sumone said its pathetic. Whats wrong with watching movie alone? I dont get it. I think its cool that you dont rely on sumbody else to have fun. You know how to have fun alone rite. Thats what i think. I mean shopping alone is fun actually. Anyway, im proud of myself! Hehe.

Okey, i heard all the fuss about this movie like months ago. Actually i dont know what this movie is about. I read in the newspaper that said this movie is brilliant! Not only that, it achieved box office collection! Some of my friends said its boring. But i'll be stupid if i rely on my friends to know about the review of this movie. I mean, i prefer to rely on the review on the internet or anyone who is expert in movie of course, so i decide to watch it alone so i can judge it myself.

When the movie was released, i was busy with my final exam. I kept thinking that i know im gonna miss it because that movie will be in the cinema not for one month but only for 2 weeks instead. So, obviously i cant watch it cause im busy preparing for my finals. No matter how much i love Michael Jackson, im sooo not gonna jeopardizing my study right? At least thats the right thing to do. I taught maybe i can just catch it on dvd or something.

But surprisingly i heard that they extend it since lotsa people want to watch it. My luck eh? Haha. So i watched it and im touched! It was so good i want to watch it again! Its basically a rehearsal video for his concert which is suppose to be held few days after the day he passed away. Its pretty sad rite? One thing for sure, He's a good dancer. For a 50 year old guy to dance like that, wow! Luckily, they recorded the whole rehearsal and people can watch it. The rehearsal was recorded few days before he died. He was so excited for his concert and he kept practicing again and again. He's so humble and down to earth. When a person is so down to earth like that, its hard for us to find a reason not to like him. Whenever peoples complimented him, he will smile and said god bless you. That is so humble. I dont get it why some people criticize him.

In that rehearsal, he performed Billie Jean, Beat It, Earth Song, Smooth Criminal, I'll Be There, Wanna Be Startin Something and so much more. Their preparation for the concert is really amazing. Sure it can be an escapism for anyone that watch it. I know i am. For 2 hours i couldnt think of anything else besides him. How great he is. As a performer and as a person. Im so gonna get the dvd when it release later. Will watch it again and again and of course i'll show it to my future children later. Truly a legend, truly one in a million. May you rest in peace.....Mikaeel

Future writer maybe?

Its a holi holiday! I just finished my final exam last Sunday and damn it feels good! I got 3 weeks for holiday. Mase tgh x cuti mcm2 benda plan nak buat tapi bile dah cuti relax kat rumah je layan dvd. Its good enough for me but it will be nicer if i can go on a vacation or something. I need to take a time off before new sem start. I mean, this sem i worked my ass off to increase my cgpa and hopefuly its worth it. We'll see cause the result will be release in 3 weeks from now. Cuak jgk ni. Haha. I dont want to put my hope to high cause juz in case if my cgpa remain the same, nnt aku jgk yang frust. But i cant help it. Kalau bole skrg jgk nak check the result. Then only i can enjoy my holiday to the max without any worries.

Cuti ni one thing for sure, im gonna meet my shindois. Lama x jumpa budak2 ni. Last time jumpe pon mase buka puase dulu. Tu pon ngan Fiera and Syaz je. Nadia and Ain pon dah lame x jumpe. Cuti ni, hmm i just wanna relax my mind. Meaning, DVD marathon for sure, blogging, kemas bilik, jumpe kawan, hang out with family, watch movies, and thats it. Ni je lah yang aku biase buat kalau mase cuti. But this time, i wanna do something different. I wanna start working on my script. I juz discovered this new software and i downloaded it for free. This software is for any scriptwriters who want to put their ideas on paper instead of using Microsoft Words. At least by using this software aku bole tau mcm mane format buat script. Bukan suke2 je bole type kat Microsoft Word. Byk sgt ceite ni, juz waiting for me to write it down. Hehe.

I dont really know if im good at it. But my friends said that i know how to play with words. Im not sure if its true cause they are my friends so sometimes can be bias also right? But last month, i gave some of my lyrics and poems to Tim. She is a rockstar! Haha, seriously can play the guitar that well so i gave it to her my masterpiece so she can make a song by figuring out the melodies. And when i heard it, its good! Cant believed finally theres a melody for those poems and lyrics i created. In fact one of my friends just broke up with her long time boyfrind and when she listened to that song, she feel touched. Its a song that i write about being positive and remain strong no matter what thunders attack you. Wow, i cant believed it!

I've started writing lyrics when i was 16. You know cause thats the time when you faced all kinds of teenage drama. I pour my heart out with words since im not a rebel type of girl. It helps cause i still survive until today. Haha. I have lots of collection and i was planning to write more. But now, i wanna start to write about actual story. I just downloaded a sample of script. Its from 'When Harry met Sally'. I heard that movie is good. I checked it on the internet all the reviews said that its worth watching so i downloaded it straight away. So when i watch that movie, i can also see the script so i know how the script works. That movie was back in 1989. Sally played by Meg Ryan and Harry played by Billy Crystal. I love 80's movie. So, its a bonus!

Old Photos

Its scary sometimes whenever i flip through old photos. I swear it gave me goosebumps.Its amazing how this things can make you feel weird, funny, sad all in one. It can bring back old memories whether its sweet or not. It can give you this feeling of happiness sometimes. Thats how i felt every time i looked at it. Thats why old photos are my treasures. I swear, if anything happen to it, i'll go nuts!

When i looked at old photos it somehow can make me smile alone and i felt like it was just yesterday i took the picture. Be it family photos, photos of myself, photos with my boyfriend or even with my friends. It reminds me of how sweet it was back then. And of course it made me realize that im gettin old! It scary sometimes to think that im not a teenager anymore. What do u expect? Im 22 for god sake! Theres no teen word anymore for my age. Everything is happening so fast and its true what people always said that time is not waiting fo us. So true!

A picture worth a thousand word. I couldnt agree more to that. But the truth is, we are the one who can interpret it correctly because it's our photos. It reminds of what you used to be or what you used to have and sometimes, it can help you to be more thankful for what you got. Same goes to me. I always have issues with my parent. Who doesnt right? But i kept it locked deep inside cause i dont want to be rude to them, so i just remain silent. Sometimes i kept comparing them to other parents. Which is not good. But when i looked back the family photo album, i cant help but to love them even more. They love me and my sister so much that they bought us like thousand of dresses when we were little and thanks to them, i looked cute back then. Haha. And by just looking at it, i know that they really love me. Sometimes old photos can makes you remain grounded and it can help you to know where you actually belong.

When it comes to friends, damn it they hurt me so much i kept asking myself, why i still talked to them? Then, when i looked back at our school photos, then it hit me straight in my head. What we had is so precious and to let it go with a stupid cat fight is silly. I really value my friendship with them. When i looked at the photos, i know that i can forgive them for what they did. Because if i have to live without their contagious laugh, it feel so weird! Those old photos have a very beautiful stories to tell. We grew up together. We go through different phase with each other and its all there in the photos. I bet, 30 years from now, when i look back at those photos, i know it can still make me smile and i'll laugh alone when i recall back their jokes!

Some people dont get it why certain people are so into yesterday. Some people believe that what we go through today is what counts. But we wont be who we are if we're not from yesterday. Thats what have shaped us to be who we are today. Theres nothing wrong of diggin up old boxes to search for an old photo album. Memories will always remain with us. And its nicer if you looked at it with the one that you love whether its your family, your boyfriend or even your friends. The laugh that you share with them when you look at those old photos is priceless!

p/s : Fiera & Qila, our photos when we were a librarian back in 1998 is the best! Classic! Hehe....