Ramadhan is here!

Yeah, tonite semua dah start bertarawih. Me too. Haha, hajatnye this time of Ramadhan, i dont wanna miss any tarawih. Kalau malas nak g masjid, tarawih kat rumah pon boleh. I love Ramadhan. I dont know why. Sometimes its hard to describe your feeling in words. Bulan Ramadhan ni, if you do any good deeds then the reward will be double. Kalau buat dosa pon berganda jugak la. Thats why people always said that, byk kan recite the Quran during Ramadhan cause pahalanye berlipat ganda.

Everytime bila bulan puasa start, sure aku teringat yang my dad suka sgt ajak buka puasa kat luar and yeah he just love to go to the Bazaar Ramadhan. Borong byk gile makanan. Bole cover buka puasa for 1 week! Paling best makan murtabak. Haha. Murtabak ni mmg sinonim with my family. All my uncles, cousins pon dah tau. Everytime bulan puase mesti beli murtabak. Padahal, murtabak tu bukan time puase je ade, tapi bila bukan time Ramadhan, x de pon beli. If my dad went to the bazaar alone or without me, he still remember what i like to have for buka puase. Selalu dia beli air kelapa dgn nasi lemak! Sweet rite? Sometimes, when my stomach already full pon i forced myself to eat it just to jaga hati my dad. End up, rosak diet! Haha, but its worth it. My dad suka.

Just now my dad bagi i something. Dia bagi newspaper ads yang ade list of hotel and cool restaurant to buka puasa and he asked me to keep it. Haha, suka betul aku kalau buka puase kat hotel. Kalau dah buffet, screw diet lah! Tibai je melantak semua makanan! haha. Last Ramadhan paling best buka puasa kat Sunway Hotel. Sedap teramat! Western, Malay food smua aku bantai! On that time, i already set in my mind, its ok just eat it, you can regret later! Haha. Sanggup, makanan punye pasal!

It feels so good to spend your Ramadhan with your family and friends. Family the most. Bila bangun pagi nak sahur, semua muka ngantuk je x nampak mata. Tgh kunyah nasi pon mata tutup! Hehe. Klakar! I love Ramadhan. I always looking forward for Ramadhan. I just love the feeling. Nak buat benda yang baik pon rasa seronok. This ramadhan, im craving for Nasi Tomato and Ayam Masak Merah. Hopefuly dpt la esok or bile2 lah for buka puasa. Every year, i hope that this Ramadhan will be better then before. So, im trying to make the best out of it. Bukan la nak riak ke ape. I know that im not perfect, obviously x terlepas dari buat salah, but i always try my best to get the benefits from Ramadhan. Just like the others.

Screw you spot questions!

Im not in a mood actually. Yesterday was my arabic mid term exam and i think i can pass but cukup2 makan je. At first i taught i can score better cause i have all the spot questions, not from my ustazah but from my friends ustaz. He did gave a hint on what to concentrate on and which page that is really important. So i taught great! Tak kan ustaz nak tipu plak kan. So, dengan semangatnye i memorized all the answers for the questions yang kononye akan kuar in the exams. I mean it, i memorized everything. Even for the essay question!

I went to exam venue feeling confident and i never feel this way before mase nak exam arab sebelum ni. Then when the examiner said we can open the paper, omg! Most of the question yang kononye kuar x de! Ade la a few but all the topics that i read and memorized semua x kuar! My hand was shaking and i cant believe it! I dont know what happen, maybe they change the questions last minute or ustaz tu tipu but tak kan ustaz nak tipu student plak? But too late.

I kept telling myself to try my best because that is all i can do. I think i can pass it. Like i said cukup2 makan je. Yang paling x puas hati tu, usually, for the essay questions, diorg akan tanye from the text book which i have prepared. Suddenly, the question is 'Ramadhan in Malaysia'. Ha ape aku nak tulis? If its in english sure la piece of cake, tapi ni in arabic weyh! One thing i know yang aku buat betul for the essay is, i wrote ' Ana uhibbu ramadhan fi malezia '. It means i love ramadhan in Malaysia, and the rest is just crap! Haha! But nak sedih2 pon for what, what done is done. The moral is, study semua and dont study yang spot2! sometimes, ustaz2 pon x bole pakai. And dont study last minute. If you study last minute, and when you know the spot question, topic lain mmg confirm x baca dah la and end up bile kuar yang x spot, menggigil! Sigh...

Al-Fatihah

Ketua kumpulan nasyid terkenal Asri Ibrahim telah pulang ke rahmatullah pada pukul 11 pagi di Hospital Pantai. From what i heard, meniggal sebab sakit jantung. This is all too sudden. I always love his beautiful voice especially for takbir raya. Every Raya morning, when i heard his voice for takbir raya, i feel so peaceful. Suara dia mendayu-dayu. Lagu2 nasyid dia pon unik and totally different. Rabbani is one of my favorite nasyid group besides Raihan, Saujana and Brothers. Not a big fan of the latest nasyid group actually cause for me, they are so average and i think they just do it for the money. Nak glamor lebih la. I still remember when i was standard 5, aku masuk pertanding nasyid dengan 5 baiduri which is my class. Dalam group aku ade about 10 girls. Yang aku ingat ade Sarah, Aifaa, Sharafina, Nisa, Hamizah and yang lain aku x ingat sangat. Kitorg nyanyi lagu Rabbani which is lagu Maal Hijrah. Menang first place ok! Sweet memories. I really like him because he is a nice person and i've seen him before in Singgahsana Hotel twice mase berbuka puasa dengan family aku few years back and the last time i saw him bulan puase last year. He is so friendly. Its a big lost actually. I still cant believe it. I hope they still have the copy of the takbir raya by him cause i want to hear it raya tahun ni since bulan puase pon dah nak start next week. No one can replace him. A legendary in Nasyid entertainment. Seriously one in a million. Rest in peace Ustaz Asri. Pergi mu tiada pengganti. Al-Fatihah.

Hottest women ever!

Everytime when i asked any guys who is the hottest sexiest women on earth, Jawapan nye mesti 3 minah ni. Angelina Jolie, Jessica Alba or Megan Fox. X de pompuan lain ke? Am i the only one who thinks that diorg ni normal je? I mean not that hot smpi semua male species adore them like crazy! I think the reason of course will be their pouty irresistable lips. In my opinion, i think the hottest women ever will be Yulia Volkova. She's from Tatu, Russian Band. Remember the song All The Thing She Said and All About Us? Check out the video. She is so hot especially with her boy cut spiky hair! I like her pretty beautiful pair of eyes. I think if i get to see her in real life, i might kiss her cause she is the best female creature ever!

Russian girls semua lawa2. Seriously i cant deny it! In fact, lagi lawa then mat2 salleh in US mostly. I like her the most in Friend or Foe video clip. I love her spiky hair and she looked extremely hot ok! I watched that video like thousand times already and damn i wish i could meet her, and hug her. Ok, i sound like a horny lesbian here. Its just that i think she is so beautiful. So pretty, so hot, so sweet. All in one! Here are some of other women that men usually dont think of them as hot but i think they are hotter like fire burning! Check it out!

This is Natalie Imbruglia. She is one of my favorite singer back in the 90's until now. Her eyes also shines like crystal and her eyes drive me crazy! During the 90's she has this short boy cut hair and she looks super sexay. Even when now she is comfortable with long hair, she is still pretty! Check her out in one of her music video 'Wrong Impression'. Super sweet like honey bunny!

This is Mena Suvari. She is one of my favorite actress in Hollywood. I love her ever since i watched American Beauty. In that movie, her character is a trouble teenager. Still she look cute in a naughty way. Her eyes is also irresistable. In the movie Rumor Has It, she is Jenifer Aniston sister and in that movie, she is so cute that i want to hug her! Especially the part where she was crying wanting to see her sister. Such a cutie.

This is Olga Kurylenko. Her name is so classy. She is one of the hottie in James Bond movie. I cant get enough of her big dreamy pair of eyes. She looks like Angelina Jolie here with that pouty lips but her beautiful eyes that attracts me the most!

This is Winona Ryder. She is one of the guest star in all times favorite show Friends and i like her the moment i watched her on friends. I like to watched her in Edward Scissors Hand. She also has the prettiest eyes that no one can deny.

Nelly Furtado is one of my all time favorite singer ever since her hit single ' Im Like A Bird'. Her eyes is not that big and pretty like the others, but i just love her exotic look. Her eyes is like hiding so much dark secrets. Ok, i can be so imaginative at times. But one thing i know, i just love to look at her without knowing the actual reason. It just happen. Like i said, maybe it is because of her exotic style

Ashley Olsen is beautiful the way she is. I also like her twin Mary Kate Olsen but i think Ashley is better and i dont know why. Maybe her eyes is prettier. I grew up with Ashley Olsen. I mean, when i was little, i watched all her movies like a zillion times and i love her since i was a kid. She is cute too when she was little and its not a surprise that she grow up and become one of the prettiest women. At least for me. Her eyes is the best part of her!

My girl Lindsay Lohan. Love to watched her in The Parent Trap back during the 90's. I really taught she has a twins! I love her even more after i watched Freaky Friday, Mean Girls and Just My Luck. I think she looked twice as hot as the way she actually look in her hottest movie I Know Who Killed Me. In that movie she's a stripper. Enough said! Haha. I love her sweet pretty face and her smile and her laugh is so contagious. I believed that if she quit partying and concentrate more on her acting, she can easily grab the Oscar cause this lady got the talent!

Yoanna is the winner of America Next Top Model season 2. She is the best! From all the winners, i like her the most. She is elegent, confident, fierce and unique in her own way. But most of it, i love her short stylo hair and her eyes is so sexay!

This is Scarlet Ortiz. One of the best spanish actress. Love her in Secreto De Amor. She is like a walking Barbie Doll. So perfect! I like her long straight hair and her face is so pretty even without make up. Everytime when i see her cry on tv, i wish i could wipe her tears! She's like an angel!

Okey, that is super lenghty bla bla bla. Cant help it. I just love all this women. They are the best female creature ever breathing on earth! Haha, take that! I really wish that i could meet them but i have no idea why. Maybe just to see the beautiful of gods creation. Haha. If anyone ask me which body part that i like the most in my body, i will definitely say my eyes! And please take note that im not a lesbian. Im happily taken. I just adore them. Like crazy. I believe that even when they get old later, they still look pretty to me. Screw Angelina, Alba and Megan. I dont think they are that hot. Just pretty average. By the way, ini bukan my ranking tau. Just simply letak je. But the first will be Yulia of course! Pretty big eyes, whats not to love? :)

Cravin for doughnuts!

Yesterday, i went to Mid Valley for a movie with my brother. The movie start at 3.30 pm and we arrived there around 12.30 so its kindda early. Tau la kan kat Mid Valley kalau nak beli ticket beratur mcm keretapi! Then for lunch suddenly rase mcm nak mkn doughnut. Lately i dont know why i like doughnuts so much! I ate 3 doughnuts and nak lagi actually but nak saving duit. Sedih... But the doughnut is so cute, kalau tengah lapar rase nak amik semua!

After our stomach almost explode, we went to Speedy Video. Hajatnye nak window shopping je but end up beli jgk! haha. I bought Jonas Brother's the movie vcd. I cant resist that, its Jonas Brothers ok! Salman plak, sebok nak beli vcd Inspector Gadget. At first i refused to buy that for him, then cam kesian plak masam je muka dia. And i know, he love that movie so much and we were looking for that cd for ages! So beli je la. If kakak dia beli, adiknye pon kene jgk kan.

Then, g MPH as usual, Salman nak sgt cari lagi 3d puzzle to add to his collection. Kat rumah tu dah bole buat muzium ok! Later we went to Jusco cause tengah sale. I was hoping to buy a new handbag but semua yang ade aku mcm x minat. Buruk ok! I need a handbag that can represent me. Haha, ape kes? I mean that i want a handbag that can say im not a girl, not yet a women. Not so expensive and not so Datin2 type, but more like a simple women. Tak nak la yang terlalu mcm budak2. X main lah! But too bad, maybe i expected too much smpi aku x jumpe pon handbag yang aku suke. Frust jgk but x pe, next time shop lagi! In fact, Salman pon dah bising cause berejam2 aku cari handbag, dia pon dah bosan.

After that, we went to the game arcade and as usual spent rm10 je. X bole byk2 sgt. Mid Valley punye game arcade is kindda lopek cause byk rempit melayu and rempit cina. I x suke! then we went to gsc. Usually aku biase beli pop corn but this time saje nak tukar angin so i bought nugget. Not bad! We watched Land of The Lost and that movie is super hilarious! I laughed all the time. Salman pon same! We had a good time! Then we headed home cause its 5.30 already.

Super Paranoid !

Yep, i taught i was infected! Thank god its just a normal fever. Sekarang semua tgh sebok2 pasal virus H1N1 and the virus is spreading so fast! Rase mcm baru semalam i heard about the virus existence in Mexico and i said to myself 'Nasib baik jauh dari Malaysia'. But now its everywhere. Even jumlah kematian also is increasing! Takut weyh! Few weeks back i read in newspaper that many University dah tutup for about a week just to make sure that the virus wont spread everywhere and i was hoping that UIA pon tutup jugak.

This week i heard so much rumor telling that the virus is in UIA now that one of the students is infected. And the first thing i said to myself is 'Great, so bile UIA nak cuti?' Gile selfish kan? I know. I never thought of how dangerous it is that the virus is in UIA now. I guess i was so desperate for holiday maybe sampai aku dah tak pikir benda lain dah.

Last Monday mase class Radio Production, i was sitting next to Kak Na and i was asking her to send all her computer games to my pendrive. Then bile aku masukkan pendrive aku in my laptop, ade wizard cakap my pendrive ade virus so i asked Kak Na 'Ni nak delete or nak move to quarantine?' and she said ' Ape quarantine? Ingat H1N1 ke?' I was laughing like hell! Then on Wednesday mase class Radio Production jugak, Kak Na was missing then one of her friend informed the lecturer that Kak Na is infected. Damn, baru je last Monday buat lawak bodoh about it then bole betul2 terkena plak kan? Last time i heard, dekat UIA je dah ade 17 kes including the lecturer and staff and rumor has it that one of the student is dead. I dont know if its true or not but serious takut ok!

Then today, after i finished class at 1 pm, i packed my belongings and headed home cause i dont have class on Friday this sem. Since this morning aku rase mcm x selese. Flu all the time and badan aku pon mcm nak demam dah. Then suddenly aku baru teringat pasal Kak Na. Then i asked myself ' Aku pon dah kene ke?' Ye la, Kak Na was sitting next to me last Monday so there's possibility kan? And the early symptom is fever, flu and cough. Risau jugak la aku. Then aku fikir kalau betul la aku kene, what will happen to me if aku kene quarantine? Camne dgn keje aku yang bertimbun? Tak pasal2 kene tangguh sem then when will i grad?? All things semua lah aku pike takut punye pasal. Time tu lah aku dok recall back all movies yang involve pasal virus like I Am Legend, Resident Evil. Camne eh if this virus destroy all the mankinds on earth? Heh, ape aku merepek ni?

After that, i told my mum that i want to go check out then mase kat clinic, the doctor said that it was just a little fever and he gave me antibiotic. Leganya! Haha, i was so stupid being scared for nothing! Thank god. I hope i'll feel better tomorrow so all this paranoid feeling can go away and leave me alone. I have lots of better things to do instead of worrying about things like this.

I love my so - called friends!

Friends. What is the first thing u think when you heard this word? I have no idea. People said that everyone needs a friend and i couldnt agree more. But what if your so called friends keeps hurting you and drivin you nuts! Not only that, they also teased you and looked down to you and they just remember you when they're having a problem. Hmm, what kinds of problem? Boy problem!

I dont know what was i thinking. I still have no idea why aku still kawan dgn minah2 mcm ni. We were friends for years and terlalu byk kenangan aku dgn diorg ni. We laughed like hell everytime we met! We grew up together and we see the world together. But when times past by, as people always said, people change. Sometimes i dont even know them. Sometimes im still searching for my friends that i used to love in them but everytime when i did, they gave me more reason to hate them! But i cant. They are still my friends. My bestfriends. Or is it?

I keep asking myself lately, why i still want to be their friend? Why i still wanna meet them? I guess i have strong faith in everything. I always hope that one day they will just stop hurting me and become the girl i used to know years ago. I miss that girl. Not the ego self centered biatch they have become now.

Sometimes i wonder what i have done to make them treating me this way? Aku pernah sakitkan hati diorg ke? Or maybe aku x perasan. I dont know. But no matter what, i have tried to be nice with them. In fact when they need someone to talk to and when they were having problems, they asked me to call them and i did. Well i know its not right because she is the one who needs to talk to me and why the hell i have to call them? Exactly! Thats what i did just to show them that i do care about them and hoping that they could do the same things for me. But everytime when we meet up, they always tease me and hurt me like usual. Everytime when i met them i hope that they will change and we will have so much fun spending time together but at the end of the day, i end up crying on the way back home.

The same things will happen again when they have the problem and i will call them. And when we planned to meet up, they're still with their attitude that driving me crazy! But the thing is, i cant get enough of them. They are my friends for years! They can make me cry and also they can make me laugh like hell and i like it that way! Why cant they just make me laugh instead of making me cry? Is it because im wearing tudung? Maybe they think that when im wearing tudung i looked like mak cik. I never judged them on what they were wearing but why they keep teasing me? Is it because im short, im fat, im wearing tudung? Is this the reason?

Once me and my friend were in Zara in Mid Valley. I never shop at Zara before. Aku tak pernah beli baju kat Zara, Topshop, Doroty, Forever 21 and stuff because i usually beli kat jusco je. Me and my friend tgh tgk2 baju kat Zara that time and a few girls entered Zara. Rupenye all that girls is kawan member aku ni. They looked kindda hot la jgk. I mean sexay. Then one of the girls asked my friend 'U datang dgn sape?' and my so-called friend said 'I dtg dgn my friend, dia kat belah sane'. I was standing exactly next to her actually but i pretend i didnt heard it and just buat2 tgk baju. I couldnt get it. Why dia x nak mengaku aku kawan dia? Is it because im not up to date and maybe something wrong in the way i dress? I almost cry when she did that. I cant believe what she did to me. It hurts so much!

But when we were on the phone, i love talking to them. They make me laugh. Maybe thats why i am still being friends with them. No matter what they did to me, i dont know how long i can stand this. It hurts so much. And i dont have the guts to fight back cause i really care about this friendship. I dont want just because of one stupid fight, it can ruin everything that we had since we were young. I love them and i really hope that one day the will realize. Im still here for them if they need a shoulder to cry on and if they dont want to admit me as their friends, then it is fucking ok because i already used to it. If i was the one who want to meets them so badly but they give me all kinds of excuse not to, then what other choice do i have? I sill love them. What we had shared and what we had is so precious. Why cant they just call or sms me first? Why do i have to start everything? I dont think they care about me the way i care for them.

Well maybe in my case, i love friends who added a bright spot and also a dark spot to my life. Its a blend of black and white that it will become grey. Im okey with it.